"this is stupid, irresponsible and stupid-"
"i'm fucking in love with you and you're calling this stupid and irresponsible?"
"no, don't blame love for this lo'ak.. don't"
!WILL WRITE BOOK 2 WHEN AVATAR 3 WILL COME OUT!
x-started on 14.01...
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i was sitting down at the table, zoning out on a random tree thinking of how just in two days everything will change, i'll be a fucking woman.
will i be able to even fucking spend time with any of my friends? ronal will pressure and torture me ten times harder than tsireya since i'll be next tsahik, she already made me miss so much practice in the morning just so she could teach me the healing herbs and many other things.
it's not like i was found of practice or anything but it was better than having the strict ronal teach you the way of tsahik. plus that meant less time spent with my friends in the morning.
ugh i don't want to be a woman, i want to live my life, visit and try new things i haven't. everything will change forever. and i can't imagine mating with ao'nung, i'll fucking throw up just at the thought of it.
lo'ak kept staring at me with a confused face, i didn't pay attention though since my eyes kept burning the poor tree i had looked at for hours.
i feel his fingers cupping my chin making my head tilt to his side, my gaze was still glued to the tree though. it felt soo good to just rest your eyes for so many minutes.
i came back from my trance when i felt lo'ak's lips on top of mine, i blinked pushing him away.
"lo'ak don't do that when i rest my eyes! you know how much i hate it-" he didn't listen to me, he only crashed his lips back on mine.
thank eywa the table we were sitting on was a private one.
this time i kissed back for his sake, and for my sake so i won't get pissed at him though i never really do.
he pulled away with a grin squinting his eyes at me "you've been resting your eyes for five minutes. you haven't blinked since and i couldn't just look at you frozen like that"
i roll my eyes when he mocked the way i said that i was resting my eyes which i definitely was "well you should've because you ruined it for me" i spat out letting my head fall between my hands landing on the table.
he put his hand on top of my head, slowly moving it up and down "i'm sorry, what's bothering you babe?" he spoke softly into my ear and i couldn't do anything but fold at his words.
i lift my head up slightly looking at him, giving him lowly doe eyes with a small pout "you know what's bothering mee" i whined putting my head back down.
"and don't apologize you're making me feel bad" i murmured through the coverage of my hands.
he chuckled kissing my cheek picking my shoulders up bringing me back sitting up with my head straight, i sigh looking at him.
"listen it's going to be okay, you're just going to go through a.. weird process then it'll pass" i shake my head at him "it's not that lo'ak, it's the afterwards!"
