"this is stupid, irresponsible and stupid-"
"i'm fucking in love with you and you're calling this stupid and irresponsible?"
"no, don't blame love for this lo'ak.. don't"
!WILL WRITE BOOK 2 WHEN AVATAR 3 WILL COME OUT!
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because love can burn like a cigarette..
i could finally walk, not perfectly or like before but i was going at my own pace. everyday i was walking to improve and het healthy.
but today i was excited, excited to get that big ass bandage off!
not gonna lie i got used to it but in the annoyingly way.
"okay you ready?" jake asked as i nod, he offered to do it since apparently he likes seeing scars and he said i'll have a badass one.
but i didn't like any sort of cut on my body but a scar?? a big fucking scar? mother hell no.
i can't stand any sort of shit on my body.
he took the strands of the bandage off around my waist, everyone gathering to see how it looks like.
once it was off i cringed seeing it.
it wasn't that big but you could definitely see it, it shattered my skin into a round shape with tiny cut around it.
i had to look away, i have to cover that with something asap or i'll kill myself successfully this time.
joking..
"damn looks neat" jake praised but i stood up not wanting to hear or anyone to stare at it anymore "kid where you goin?" jake called after me but i shrugged the voices away wanting to go for a swim or something.
i fucking hate it.
"hey wait up" lo'ak tried to catch up to me by holding my forehand but i kept going "what's wrong?" he got in front of me seeing his grasp wasn't going to stop me from walking away.
placing his hands on my shoulders looking at me with concerned eyes.
"nothing let go" i didn't want to talk about it be comforted, it's useless. whatever anyone would say i won't change my mind, it's horrible and it always will be.
wanting to shaking his hands off me but he didn't let me and that made me only get more annoyed, i hate when people don't leave me alone when i say to.
"don't be upset you can barely see it" there it was, there it was that stupid comforting i haven't asked of.
"it looks fucking ridiculous lo'ak" i disagreed with his words but he only shook his head.
"no it doesn't. it show that you survived, it is a part of you-" "it only shows that it didn't finished the job it was supposed to"
fuck it.
his eyebrows slightly raised at what i just said, not expecting for me to say something like that.
"you wished to be dead then? is that it?" i sigh.
obviously no, and he knows that's not what i meant but he just had to bring it up.
