Pretty little Wallflower

Chapter 11

'hey,you just left, hope you're okay but i want to talk. So coffee Monday at 9am?-no.9' I keep staring at the message, it's 8am, I've had a terrible night's sleep, the message and the dreams have kept me up, i feel bad for leaving without saying bye but i didn't think he would care, hes sleeping with a new girl every week so i didn't think that i would matter, or is he just like this with every girl he sleeps or does things with? How the hell did he get my number?

"Mayla" i shout

"Coming" she shouts back

"How did Theo get my number, i didn't give it to him" i question

"Well you see he said that you said to grab it off me" i went to interrupt but she carried on "wait let me finish, i said if i found out he lied i would ruin his chances with you but what did he say to you?"

"He wants coffee Monday morning, but I'm not gonna go"

"Why?"

"Because i just don't want to, i'm not going to be like all the other girls he gets with where they pine over him after they've spent the night with him"

"So something did happen, tell me all the details" she says as she climbs into my bed.

I tell Mayla everything that happened that night, she's shocked that i did what i did that night but so am i, it was out of character for me to do that. I've always been cautious when it comes to boys and im doing the cliche thing by waiting for the right boy to do all those things with but i broke part of it in high school and the first year of college but i didn't go all the way so part of it is still kept i just don't want to go wasting whats suppose to be special with someone whos not worth it.

It's been two weeks and somehow he's found out my schedule and has started to bring me coffee waiting outside the doors of the lecture room. I'm quite impressed that he's kept this up and he got my coffee order right, it's pretty basic and most girls get it but it's a nice drink. I did try to dodge him but he found me, it was annoying at first but it's turned cute now.

I pack up my laptop from my lecture and start walking out. "Hey, got your caramel iced latte and I'm going to ask you again, have you thought about my question I asked you 2 weeks ago?" Theo asks while walking beside me, every since he's been doing that i've been getting alot of unwanted attention drawn to me, a lot of nasty comments about my looks and my scare, the rumours about the accident has got worse but i know its not his fault he doesn't know and i'm sure if he did he still wouldn't stop doing what he's doing.

"What was it that you asked? i forgot what it was" i said back lying, i just want him to say it again. "Go on a date with me, spend time with me, i think i like you but i don't know how that feels because i've never felt this way about a girl before. Just give me a go, please"

"Well um, i'm not really wanting to date right now, i just want to focus on my course at the moment and we don't know each other, you'll find a new girl to do this with by tonight"

"I can guarantee you i won't, come to my game on friday night with Mayla and you'll see how serious i am then"

"Maybe, i don't go to games with the big crowds and that" i say quietly trying to turn that idea down. Being in a crowded place unsettles me now, it makes me anxious, I feel like everyone stares and looks at the scar. Before the accident i wouldnt of thought twice about going to his game, I would have said yes. It makes my head feel funny trying to figure out why he keeps asking to go on a date or to spend time together. It's like it's some sick joke between him and his friends but if it was and Jackson found out he would have put a stop to it. I don't care about my appearance anymore, I'm sad all the time. I'm sleep deprived half of the time, I just don't care about anything anymore and I don't mind staying this way. I'm content with the way I am, I don't deserve to still be living and most people would say well you've had this second chance so take it and make the most of it, I would have rather died that night than carry on with this guilt and feeling like shit all the time. It's draining and I don't want to do it anymore.

"Well you're coming to my game and you're going to be cheering me on '' Theo says to me smiling, he's gorgeous with his dark brown hair that's messy but looks good at the same time, it's effortless and I'm here looking like I'm homeless compared to him.

"I said maybe, i might be busy with my assignments" i say back trying to not get his hopes up.

"Yeah okay but you are coming, I'm sure of it but I've got to head off to practise now so i'll call you or see you later."

"Okay, bye thanks for the coffee".

I start walking towards the car park and I see Stacy, she's by herself, since she doesn't have her group of girls with her, she probably won't come up to me and say anything.

"Hey,stay away from Jesse and Theo, they don't need you killing them as well." she says while walking up to me. I'm sick of putting up with her shit all the time, the snarky comments, the looks, I don't need it.

"There all yours stacy, Jesse's my friend thats it" i say back while grabbing my keys out of my bag

"Stay away from them, Theo doesn't need you ruining his career too, this is the last time i'm telling you"

I look at her confused, instead of saying something back i open my car door i'm sat in my seat about the close the door but her hand grabs the top of it, "im mean it, they wouldn't want you anyway looking like that with that scar" she lets go and slams my door shut.