wedding, tommyinnit.

seventeen. i'm sorry.

WARNINGS: overthinking & kind of mentions of depression !!! PLEASE read w caution<3

IRL & IMESSAGE

it'd been just over a week now since the whole situation had happened with my ex. my parents and sister were back home, and i did nothing but sit quietly in my room, alone. for some unknown reason, i'd distanced myself from everybody. never did i think such a small kiss would effect me so badly.

i'd ignored the countless texts from all my friends that were trying to arrange plans, and did absoloutely nothing for my career. not only was i still overthinking rhys and i, it led to me overthinking every minor detail in my life.

overthinking was one of my bigger flaws, one small thing would cause me to stress and panic about everything. so that's what made me sit and stress about everything. my youtube channel, though it was doing well, people were upset with me for not posting in a while. lorelai and i had barely spoke, she was busy with moving in with niki, and i was too busy doing things with my new friends.

another thing i panicked about was how i still lived with my parents, all of my friends were out, living alone. then there was me, living with my family, not even considering living alone. don't get me wrong, i liked the idea of it. i also hated it, it was a lot of responsibility.

the main thing though, was rhys. in the back of my mind, i knew that i must still have some sort of feelings towards him, or i wouldn't have kissed him back. then again, once i'd realised i was kissing him, i pulled away. confusion was an understatement to describe my feelings.

my phone was on do not disturb, and i could only just about find the motivation to get out of bed to brush my hair and my teeth. suddenly, i was knocked out of my thoughts to my mum coming into my bedroom after knocking twice.

"hiya ev," she spoke softly, putting a cup of tea down on my bedside table along with a plate of toast. "you alright, darling?"

"i'm okay," i replied, sitting up in bed, "thank you."

"you don't have to lie to me, everly. i'm your mum, i'm here for you." she sat on my bed, careful not to sit on my legs.

"i know, i just don't know what's wrong with me." i mumbled, opening up. "rhys kissed me the other day, and i've just been stressing over it. lorelai's busy with moving so we've drifted, tommy said he doesn't care what happens with rhys because we're just friends, and it kind of hurt for some reason."

my mum nodded with each word as i spoke, understanding and listening. my mum and i had always been close, and i knew i could go to her with anything. despite knowing that i could go to her, i always hesitated to, knowing she had other things to worry about than my stupid problems that won't matter in a few times.

"oh, everly." she sighed, "with lorelai, you have to understand that she has things to do, but you will be back and better than ever soon enough. the thing with rhys, what you need to remember is you're only eighteen, relationships come and go, people go back to eachother. you're only young, don't stress over a boy. tommy, however, there really isn't much you can do."

she paused before continuing, "normally, i'd suggest speaking to him about it. i know what you're like though, and that's not what you're gonna do." she laughed at herself, me also letting out a small one. "just see how things go with him, you can ask him to come round, if anything gets too awkward and you want him to leave, message me and i'll come up with an excuse so he has to go."

smiling at my mum, i leant forward and gave her a hug. "i'll message him in a minute, thank you mum. i love you."

returning the hug with a kiss on my forehead, she replied, "i love you too sweetheart, your dad's going shopping, do you want anything?"