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18.

tw: drugs, addiction

juno le bon woke up the next morning feeling like absolute shite. the feeling after being high on coke is very hard to explain, unless you talk about it chemically. so, people like cocaine because it releases a fuck ton of dopamine into your brain, so as soon as all the dopamine leaves, you feel depressed, anxious and even physically sick. that's why getting addicted is so easy, especially when you relapse just once.

juno groaned as she got out of bed, immediately walking towards her dresser to take another line. she told herself 'it's just one line, it won't affect me'. she poured the white powder onto the dresser, and leaned down to sniff up the powder, before heading downstairs.

the day was extremely boring, and juno hardly remembered it, as that coke really made her zone out. they recorded, and finished all songs for the album, so they could now send them off to production. it was set to be released october 2nd, 1995, which was just under a month away.

the group spent the rest of the day at a restaurant to 'celebrate', which in liam's books, meant getting so plastered you cant walk. juno chilled out on the alcohol, as she didn't want a hangover since she was leaving early tomorrow, and was visiting simon. liam, however, was currently piss drunk.

"y'know what? i think i'm in love with juno". liam slurred, making juno's jaw drop.

"no you don't mate". noel chuckled, trying not to let liam make a complete fool of himself in front of juniper.

"no fuck off, i am". liam grinned drunkenly.

"you don't mean that liam". juno said, her voice barely above a whisper.

"yes i fuckin do". liam replied, pointing at juno, who was now pissed off. he had years to tell her this, and was only telling her now, when she was finally moving on.

"no you fucking don't liam. if you did, you would've told me long ago". juno replied coldly, shakily taking a sip of her double rum and coke.

"no because i didn't realize it". liam said.

"but i do now". he added, taking another big chug of beer.

"enough liam! you could've had me for years and you wouldn't. you had every fucking opportunity. piss off at this point". juno was now shouting and heads were turning in her direction.

juno stormed out of the pub. she was so angry. if he had said this as little as four months ago, juno would've immediately agreed and fold, but now that she was just starting to move on, and hearing that he wanted her back made her conflicted. she really wanted something with damon, but she had also wanted liam for years.

liam came running out of the restaurant and caught up to juno, who was angrily storming down the street towards home.

"juno, wait up". liam called out after her.

"fuck off liam". juno replied, continuing to speed walk away.

"juno i'm so fucking serious about what i said". liam said, putting his hand on her shoulder. he was sobering up quickly after jumps outburst.

"so am i, liam! this is so unfair to me. i'm finally with someone else and now you decide to want to be with me? fucking bullshite". juno replied, shrugging his hand off of her.

"juno, i know, i'm sorry. please". liam said, practically begging for her as he placed his hand on her cheek.

"fuck you". juno replied, looking up at liam, but not moving away from him.

liam bent down slightly and smashed his lips onto junipers, who was frozen for a solid few seconds. what the fuck was going on? she pulled away from him, and bitch slapped him across the face.