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05.

as soon as juno walked into her house, her cat percy trotted over to the front door to greet her.

'hi percy"! juno exclaimed, scooping up the cat in her arms and carrying him into the kitchen.

juno made herslef an iced coffee, and fed percy, before sitting in her dining area to read. she had 'so tonight that i might see' playing on vinyl in the background as she read her novel. it was at times like this juno felt the most at peace, however today she just couldn't seem to focus on the book. she kept rereading the same line over and over again. she couldn't stop thinking about damon.

she wasn't sure if all he wanted was to just one and done her, or if maybe he could've meant more. his words 'he doesn't deserve you.' kept playing over and over in her head. why would damon care about how liam treated her unless he wanted more? or was juno just romanticizing the situation? and why couldn't liam love juno the way she loved him? she couldn't stop wondering.

juno, wanting to take advantage of these emotions, walked into the hallway closet that she turned into a tiny recording studio to write lyrics to go along with these emotions.

"I check it, I wreck it, I turn it around
I gave you all my money, gave you all my money
Gave you all my money, gave you all my money
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna give you nothing
'Cause you never give me nothing back
Why can't you be good for something?
Not one shirt off your back
Why can't you be good for something?
Not one shirt off your back
Please don't try to find me through my dealer
He won't pick up his phone
Please don't try my doctor either
He won't take any calls
He's no fucking spirit healer
He just can't stop to talk
But he's gone now for the weekend".

she called this song 'dealer'. she wrote it about liam and how all she did was give him love and how she would never have that love returned. liam only ever viewed her as a quick fuck, and took advantage of the fact that juno was head over heels for him to get the sex he wanted.

juno plucked her bass to find a baseline to the lyrics she wrote, and when she was done, it was already 9pm. she decided to just lay in bed and read for the rest of the night. that was her plan until her phone rang. she grabbed it from off her nightstand, silently hoping it was damon.

"hello"? juno answered.

"hi love". liam's voice replied.

"oh. what's up "? junk asked, honestly feeling disappointed that it wasn't who she wishes it was.

"are you coming up tomorrow "? liam asked.

"yes i'll be up round 4". juno replied, remembering she needed to pack.

"are you gonna stay at my place tomorrow night"? liam asked in a seductive tone.

damons words from last night repeated in her head. 'he doesn't deserve you.'

"maybe, we'll see how tired i am when we're done recording at noel's". juno replied, not wanting to deal with liam.

"right. i'll see you tomorrow then". was all liam said before hanging up.

liam's ego always got bruised whenever juno wasn't in the mood. he took it so personally when she didn't want to shag. shaking off liam's petty behaviour, juno grabbed her suitcase to pack for a few days up in manchester. the drive from brighton to manchester was nearly 5 hours long, so juno would generally stay up there for a few days while recording and such.

she ended up packing for 4 days just in case, as well as putting her custom pink gibson SG bass in its case, as well as its matching pink studded strap. as soon as she was done packing, she crawled back into bed and fell asleep, percy sleeping on her chest.

authors note
extremely short chapter today, school is kicking my ass. who enjoyed the little lana reference i added? hope you all have a great week

(i do not own dealer by lana del ray, this is simply fiction.)