Loving me forever | book 2 of autosexual confessional ✔️

Morality means.......what

Trigger warning: child abuse and other deviant stuff that people will find disturbing

Is BDSM normal and severe or ultra kink for a normal know it's very deviant and sick the idea of inflicting pain on yourself and your partner to have neurotic feeling is god awful and not the best thing there's no such thing as a natural kink you're going to have fetishes like I have a medical fetish and fantasize about having sex with a doctor or something but then you don't and you can act upon data doctor and make love to them but then you also have the shit like BDSM and ultra kink.   I think your idea of tying up someone or choking or burning or whatever the hell you do please games that you do BDSM or things that she real killers like Ted Bundy and Paul Bernardo do not normal decent human being so why are normal decent people reading shit like Fifty Shades of Grey or other horseshit involve extreme pain and torture this is what it is it's torture. So what is a normal person I'll tell you what a normal person is a normal person is a kid in the wheelchair the girl with PTSD who just trying to live a life and anything that might seem to psychopathic people as abnormal. What is abnormal is a normal typical person who is interested in kinky sex and BDSM I find that is abnormal and atypical so really who is the real fuck off I'll tell you it's someone who doesn't have a diagnosis those are the people that are gonna be interested in BDSM kink and other horseshit that I don't find to be very savory. I don't even believe in tantra or the Kama Sutra because I find that is still psychopath because it involves going into different positions that the body is not meant to be put into and other natural stuff I have seen Tantric porn once somebody just gave me a porn Neto on Facebook a poor NATO is like a porn bomb where they even date you with porn in this case it was Tantric porn and I was like what the fuck is this and it was so traumatic it nearly caused me not just an aggravation and PTSD but also nearly caused me to have DID I think I had DID for quite some time.
I still remember having to go through the police system and having a talk to police and Internet safety to keep this Tantric porn and karma sutra shit off my stinking computer and iPad at the time I was an iPod touch so I was very angry that these people were putting their shit on earth is being tormented and traumatized. I said that this kind of porn Tantric and Kama Sutra porn is no different than the kitty stuff or kinky porn and I don't like it it should be around and I don't think it should be allowed tantra and karma sutra is no different than let's say paedophilia in my opinion it doesn't cost anything but a pile of shit for everyone and everyone. So why is there these kinky things going on behind a typical person's door because her freaky shits who are interested in hurting them each other or traumatizing children that's what they are not trying to their not trying to make love they're not trying to fuck that's trying to torture each other in someway and it's really sickening I don't like it one bit either I find it very disgusting and I think half the shit that people do in their bedroom should be illegal I don't mind sex toys I don't mind very much stuff but if it's gonna be tantra kink or Kama Sutra I think it should be illegal because it's not very normal it's not even normal in India so  these days so let's just fucking face it.
King has been around for quite some time not sure since modern times but since the times of the Kama Sutra and the tantra true treasures well and I have cars Nothing More learn harm for people they think it's meditative and stuff but really it's not it is the band. And even stuff I will not put up with in my life. I am now they're from from J Edgar Hoover want to come to the shit that I say it's got to go it's got a girl. It's just another form of harming someone another former deviancy. And people are calling LGBTQ people and auto or romantic people as deviance. I will look at your paedophile look at your tantra yoga instructor and your Kama Sutra instructor and you'll be very surprised who is deviant what is love the other is just plain sex and deviant sex. It shouldn't be allowed this kind of the eroticism. But it still allowed I think it should've gone with the times and have left having paedophilia and having Tantric or karma sutra porn should be Avenue gone the way of the dinosaurs in ancient times as humankind should've progressed and evolved but it didn't people because why because he's normal people these typical people like it they're sick you're still sick people and sick Neanderthals out there that are crying to ruin the Internet ruining lives and even take lives for tantra Kama Sutra or paedophilia sake I don't like this one bad as I said when I was a kid I never even heard of a paedophile or a Kama Sutra or even tantra. As I said I lived a very simple life I may have travelled around the world seen places going everywhere around the world and seeing different cultures been through many airports but really I was a simple kid living a simple life I was happy and healthy and I will except for my wage and I was very happy to be a kid except for school. When I was a kid I didn't have these problems that kids are having with dick pics and other stuff. I never even heard of a dick pic like when I was halfway age now I was just trying to live a decent normal life. I never heard of pornography when I was eight years old I never heard of tank when I was 16 when I heard about king it was when I was an adult and I was during the Internet and I never thought that people could do this kind of thing so that being said I was very she'll either I was very shielded as a child or I was very simple not stupid or retarded but just simple just a simple person trying to go about a simple life having simple hobbies like stargazing astronomy reading and writing that was about the size of it that's all I wanted to do. I never wanted to see you guys long or see you guys university of girls you know what I just wanted to go about life as well as simple being with my friends having fun with my friends and enjoying life I never had this kind of problem until I was an adult and when I was an adult I was shocked that this stuff was going on that there's Tantric sex Kama Sutra paedophilia and other stuff that really shouldn't be on the street or paddled on the Internet. This stuff should've been long gone like 1000 years ago this radio bang and kids and doing strange positions that really the body can't handle and these breathing techniques no breathing is to spell star breathing is supposed to help call me down not make you a deviant and I believe in that whole heartedly that breathing techniques string before Aurora Susan it's no different from choking yourself or try the choking game it's disgusting. A lot of things are different now since I was a little kid when I was a little kid there was as I said a field around my street in a very beautiful field I've been there in the winter to F whenever I had a bad day for to go with my babysitter Barney for the one I was going around smelling lilacs that was pretty fun. And I was able to venture into the friggin actual field on my own and not have to worry about whatever deviant or animal would come around hurt you unless it was an actual bear or cougar or wild animal then you would have to worry about that but I never worried about human animals the deviance. The deviant I've never had to deal with until I was an adult. When I was a kid Bonnie was the nicest person on the planet she help me build my first snow fort and other stuff she help me with things like creativity and art she helped me with having fun with my friends and she took me to the field as well the smell the lilacs. Little did I know that she was going to have some thing off for a goddamn slave but that's gonna be another story another time another work series that I would rather not deal with at this time. OK I'll say it at the year 2008 and I am not bullshitting you she call my mother and alcoholic and also my father a paedophile and cues them of having bisexual sex with her and her brother which was something that I didn't believe was really gonna happen. I didn't couldn't find them there so I still can't even fathom this she said she was a teenager when this happened and I don't believe a goddamn word which I believe that she was hurt as a kid and she's taking it out on someone who is more human and more decent than the average male my father I still don't know why she was treating my father like shit I was right now was one time when I was eight years old she often walked away and that was the last time I heard of her until the charges were dropped on my father and I had to deal with problems emotional problems again. I did not enjoy having to go through the legal system but I had to testify on my father's behalf and say hey listen this lady is crazy she's calling him there is because she wants her money and other stuff she could've sued us instead of horsing around with the police and telling lies I was going to say that in court that she was a liar and that my father had never touched me or my friends even when I had a sleepover that was a fun time when I had sleepovers did my father touch any other friends now I would've heard oh fuck and other shit and screaming like bloodcurdling screaming FYI I heard my father touched one of my friends because I was would've been woken up by it. I'll tell you more about my sleepover is later but anyway having to go to the legal system and talk to the lawyers and talk to the judge trying to testify for my father was not an easy thing but I got me rekindled interest in forensics and I want to go back and do that at some point in my life as well even though I said I fucking hate doctors think I have to be the voice of people who don't have a voice Weatherby someone like a murder victim or someone like my father who could've been a murder victim in jail. Because if you're accused of some horrific things in jail they will kill you for those horrific things that you're accused of doesn't matter if you're innocent or guilty. They'll just see what they see a lowlife a goof. And that's the honest truth I have learned that the easy way ones in high school one someone was a teacher I was also in the correctional industry and was dealing with criminals and he said he had to check certain people who were accused of certain things to see if they were still alive or not. I found that very interesting I have a book on prison even though I've been threatened with prison Guantánamo rendition Abu Ghraib and other shit. I still find it very fascinating that criminal justice system how things work how things should work like that paedophiles should be going to Guantánamo as well as terrorists and that people who beat women should also be in Guantánamo Abu Ghraib. It's just simple as that if you hurt a hair on a woman or child you should be tortured if you do stealing or something you should end up in a normal prison. I don't find that shit very funny. Now I'm going to go back to a more happier time instead of 2008 2009 2010 when I had to deal with this toxic drama that was causing me more toxicity than my mothers African lover who nearly killed her.
When I was a little kid I used to hold sleepovers as I mentioned it are used to have a Lotta friends one time and I wasn't always a loner I had friends still do it up to a certain point it was around high school when I became a loner because I decided to keep to myself and not deal with people and be bullied. But I want to before I had my period and before I grew breasts Ariana the app having friends who are decent people at one point most of them are still are and talk to me on Facebook like Karen so I'm don't even bother with me because I don't even bother to fit in and deal with life in general the way they shared so that being sad. I miss the sleepovers and I enjoy the sleepover is very much so I had one one was my favourite the solar systems themed or planet an astronomy themed sleepover where are you gotta dress up as a planet your favourite planet I was Uranis. At because I'm just weird Uranus is a very strange very beautiful planet is ass backwards is unique it's different I also would've gone on Saturn as well because it's also kind of strange looking with its rings. Jennifer who is going to be a bitch was earth and another kid was Neptune another kid was Pluto Venus and so on it was very fun and then at the end of the day we told ghost stories and stayed up all night that basically was the end all the bill was with the sleepover so we were supposed to spend the night awake and enjoy each other and enjoy telling ghost stories and other shit and then sleep in until noon in the morning because we pulled an all nighter it was fucking fun. But I also went to other girls sleepovers whose parents I would question more than my father or mother so really Bonnie what is the difference your friends parents or your own parents because I'll tell you I trust my own parents with my friends and I would my friends parents with myself think about it people. Once you leave your house you as a kid or an adult you put yourself at risk of everything not just COVID-19 where getting hurt but I'm getting raped and getting and getting kidnapped it's stress or abducted it's just the way it is it wasn't like that when I was a kid where are you had to be a very wary about where you bring your kids and there wasn't even COVID-19 or a bola well there was Ebola Ebola was there when I was in Africa I was an African problem. Not a world problem until around 2018–1 Ebola started becoming a shit in a toilet bowl that needed to be flushed it was outbreaks in the states at the time of 2017 2018 there have been some people who came back from Africa or happen let me buy a certain kind of bad in Africa that they either had Marburg or either Ebola I am nada reading during this one mini pandemic I would say it was a mini pandemic it wasn't a full-blown shit show like Covid because we all know what Ebola is like it's a haemorrhagic fever and can kill but some people can survive it which is very rare in some cases but anyway I got and still have the book the Ebola survival handbook and I still read it from time to time I've had it for almost 5 or 10 years since this mini outbreak mini pandemic with the Ebola don't have to lie about that that is the goddamn truth I remember waking up one morning and having to hear about Ebola every fucking morning not that I don't have an interest and infectious diseases or diseases and medical stuff but I just don't I didn't know what to think that I was coming here we had to wash your hands and stuff. But when I read the book it was very interesting and very informative and I enjoyed it very much that I started listening to a podcast called this podcast Will kill you which is about infectious diseases. That being said I wanted to be a doctor again but I knew that my genetics my Asian genetics would not allow it nor will my morals so I decided just to read up on the stuff and be done with it. There was no point in trying to me because in my opinion once you become a doctor you've given up being a minority person you become white you become Caucasian you don't become yourself you don't become Asian or black or Indian or Native American or Latino or Jewish you are white supremacist and that's what you are when you're a doctor you don't become a minority you become a white supremacist if you become a doctor that's what I think the second you walk in medical school and put on that coat become a Caucasoid and a European worn out that you do not become a minority you become part of the majority which is something I think is wrong. I remember this morning I had a talk about how the holocaust should be mentioned in medical school so that doctors don't have to pull the same stupid stores like Mengele and other shit heads that have been around that have fucked up peoples lives. Because they were doctors. We should learn to tolerate each other.