Loving me forever | book 2 of autosexual confessional ✔️

Sleepovers and astronomy (memories)

When I was a kid I used to go to sleep over so I didn't just have to host them. I've been to plenty of pool parties and other stuff and sleepover were the best I remember doing my first all nighter with Karen Bentley who is my friend and we were trying not to laugh at a girl who was snoring like a pig no offence but I think she had a deviated septum or something I don't know and was snoring up a storm and one girl pins for now so she want to snore but I thought that was a little extreme but and I remember telling my first ghost story Durango sleepover and many ghost stories during many sleepovers and in this case when I get the first all nighter with Karen BMV and her friends I was so happy I told a story about Ghosts pharaohs and stuff and stars scaring the shit out of everyone pretty soon one girl woke up bitching and moaning about having a nightmare about pharaohs and ghosts. Let's just say when I was 11 and under I knew my Egyptology very well I could write in hieroglyphics I just learned about her Arabic and I enjoyed anything about Egypt in the Middle East so Egyptology was one of my favourite obsessions as a kid when I was on Ridellan. That being said I could name off all the pharaohs as a kid and stuff but I can always tell a good ghost story involving a pharaoh. And it was scared the shit out of everyone that's what made me think I should be growing up with horror and Creepypasta because that's the stuff that made me happy with Creepypasta and horror and other stuff like monsters Deman goals pharaohs you name it I know that someone's heritage was still it freaked my friends I was very interesting to know all the stuff about ancient Egypt and I use it in my ghost stories. And I was a fucking good storyteller I was enough to be on are you afraid of the dark with the campfire and there was one time that I was in a camp fire situation and I told the worst story imaginable that girls that night we're having nightmares no shit. I am not go to the storyteller I am told Manny a fable during a sleepover and ended up doing all nighters because of my stories it was very fun. Another fun thing that I remember is learning how to do bowling at the age of nine when I was in third grade I went to my first bowling alley it was a neon bowling or glow-in-the-dark bowling was for a friends birthday they wanted to go bowling I was so helped up on this that I wanted to go so bad that I kind of like it like a jack ass one day like I always do I close a jack ass so that being said I ended up Learning how to dance before we went to the bowling alley they put on the aqua the first aqua album aqua was a band and still is a band and I love them to this point of life today I think this call aquarium the album I would get it on vinyl if I could but I don't know if I can afford it. That being said it Barbie doll and lollypop were my favourite songs they were a couple of other ones Mr. Jones or whatever or there they were just go and we had trading cards about the Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys which I've never seen and I enjoyed getting those even though they were quite expensive at the time I enjoyed getting the actual crate pop star trading cards. Soon we ended up going from Backstreet Boys Aqua and Spice Girls to Sugar Jones and other good artists when I was around 12 years old this was before I had my period so I didn't have to worry about fitting in everyone we were watching Miss Congeniality watch wasn't my favourite TV show or movie I would rather of watching a scary movie or something that's creepy that being said I enjoy my time that was the last actual fucking sleepover I had. And it wasn't when I had fun with because we were either watching miss congeniality or 101 dalmatians wish it wasn't my favourite fucking so either. This was the first time I had an outburst at a party and it was the last party I ever went to before I turned 14 when I turn 14 I stopped going to these parties because boys were starting to get mixed in and girls were having their hormones I just saw and I wasn't going to bother with getting raped or grog and field up and stuff because it's not worth it it's not worth of Sophia it's not worth a try and illegal aura creation of drugs that can kill you off the bat from one shot it just takes one time for you to take one pill of ecstasy or a shot of heroin or a snort of cocaine for you to die if you're not used to it so I didn't bother going to any more parties because I knew what was the consequence the autopsy Rome. That being said I would not let my kids go to any parties after the age of 12 because once you're 13 they bring in the boys and the boys cause more shit. The boys cause more problems with sex sexual assault they don't know what the hell they're doing they're just hormonal with the girls and they fuck each other and do stupid stuff and they snort shoe take whatever they can get in their hands nowadays we have these things called pharmacy parties or farm parties which pissed me off I haven't seen that and I'm glad I haven't seen that until I watched a show where a girl overdosed on a drug cocktail what is the medical term for multiple drug overdoses and she was having seizures and stuff it was horrible I said I'm so fucking glad that it's not me. And that pissed off my mother that I wanted not care anything to do with parties I wanted to do my homework and go to bed and that was it and maybe watch a forensic show or a medical show and be done with the day she did not care for that she wanted me to have friends but she had a fucking funny way of showing it at the time she said fit in fit in fit in and I was like fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. Soon she got the hint that I was saying fuck you every time he said fit in and I decided not to fit in and I have made it to my 33 year now because I decide to say fuck you to a very determined woman who is going to send me to the morgue via sitting in. Sitting in is not my favourite term I don't believe in it I believe in being yourself conformity will kill you conformity is what gets you in the parties yes you drugs high drinks and shit it's not fun. So I stopped conforming at the age of 13 and aside to be my own person started dying my hair funny colours started thinking about tattoos and piercings you know things that mean what it means to be who you are. I didn't believe in fitting in I believed in that it was either your choice as my brother John said tattoos and piercings are a personal choice and I feel the same way about parties and drugs and alcohol that they are a personal choice but they will more or less kill you instead of a tattoo or piercing unless you try to do it yourself then you kind a seal your own fade. I remember trying to pierce my medusa my car from my lap and I was a stupid start I ended up with a staff infection and I ended up in the hospital for a day and I knew it was a staff infection because of the amount of person stuff and I was asking you and me talking about it it's so gross. And I had a necrotic parts of my nose and that's why some of my parts of my nose feel like someone punch the shit out of me so would you tattoo yourself in Pierce yourself or would you go and go to a professional and actually live a life I just try to go to the expensive route and get a professional tattoo done and I did not regret it. In fact I enjoyed the time at the tattoo parlour I still enjoy and love my tattoo it's a funny little fucker is swearing water molecules. It's my first tattoo and I was 32 years old but I'll I'll tell you and ain't my last period why because I don't wanna fit in with societies standards society standards tell you to party drank smoke shoot up or get high and tell your dad I don't believe in that to me getting high is being yourself enjoying life reading a book try those things instead of chemicals and you'll get drunk and enjoy life very easily I've been a clean living person since your age of 13 and I get a clean living person 13 years before that too and I've never had a near death experience so I never went back to my friends instead I became a loner and a Lonewolf and I was happy and content with that June when I came to high school I started making some friends decent friends that were allowing me to be who the fuck I was like Tish Bana she said go ahead swear do what you want those are the friends I had the friends that I had things in common with people that were interested in the same shit I was you know tattoos piercings but not drugs alcohol and partying. And I've most of my friends were either pierce tattooed and/or are nerdy. And I have gout and they told me to keep it real meaning beer sales still remember that signage on the yearbook saying that keep it real be yourself and that was from one of my nerd friends I never was friends with this Tara person who I told you in the aforementioned book who was an anti Semite who turned out to be an anti Semite on Facebook. So I decided to not deal with her she was always a bitch to begin with as I said she was a bitch to me and a bitch to another girl with ADHD. I have ADHD as well as Asperger's and PTSD and that's just the way it is. I found out that you either like it or not I am only like Shakespeare's writings you either like it or not it's an acquired taste you don't have some kids like Shakespeare some kids don't some people I caviare so I'm down it's an acquired taste and my personality is no different I am an acquired taste either love me or hate me usually most people love me but there are some still some retards who think that I'm an asshole or a bitch or even the R word itself so that being said I don't care about what other people think if I'm an acquired taste why stress someone out every day because I just am who I am fuck you you can deal with yourself years old way and deal with yourself and fuck yourself if you think I'm loud rude or anything else fuck you. It's just the way it is it's either either love me or hate me usually most people see or say very good things about me. They say I'm a very nice person and very caring very decent human being and that I've taught them very good things and then there's your bully who says that I'm rude retarded loud stressful your name a handful past those people I don't really care for and I say fuck you. It's those bullies and say you're ugly you're retarded and stuff that puts money in a plastic surgeons pocket and I don't believe in plastic surgery unless it's life or death like if somethings going to block your nose or your airway or something then you had plastic surgery but I don't believe in it otherwise so that being said fuck the bullies and their rebel flag.