Loving me forever | book 2 of autosexual confessional ✔️

Grade 11: depression, mountaineering and boyfriends

One thing my father mentioned when I was in the 10th grade was that I looked about in Hindu at the same time for the first time I was interested in my heritage my real heritage at the time I was feigning being Japanese which was not very call reappropriated but it was what it was The rehabilitate myself in to being a better human being that was until my father said you were Tibetan and Hindu. That's when I and learning more about body art tattoos piercings gauges and Buddhism and even as much as mountaineering which was very interesting on the last for me to watch on TV and see the people in the Himalayas with her gauge Deers we call them gauged the  Elongated.  What it was is the more tattoos and piercings you had and the bigger the holes in your ears the gauges or elongation of earlobes the richer you were or more powerful you were in the society. That was what I was many of the monks had big earlobes or torna s meeting that they have achieve enlightenment.
I was very interested in Buddhism in mountaineering Stillerman with Buddhism because of my Tibetan ancestry but not so much the friggin mountaineering as I would start cursing and swearing right from the get go because of the cold because of my well PTSD which was a phantom disease at the time which was a phantom illness and I didn't know what was causing the depression that I was having in the first place all's I know is I just couldn't handle the little shits in the class the other kids particularly in the world religion class your kids are being shitheads and being real winners and they were throwing pencils on the ceiling and stuff like that it was a royal nightmare and the teacher would starve them out of lunch and I was just god-awful.    And you can tell who ended up being the scapegoat for the teacher myself. I ended up also with a non-wanted thing a boyfriend that I did not wanna have in the first place but was stuck with him because he ended up saying nice things to me he was saying he was the first actual guy that I actually talk to me a human male that actually talk to me. And was decent to me his name was Matt last long he was very nice but he was a little too nice to the girls if you know what I mean wink wink. In other words he was a treat her right off the bat. I remember coming back from vacation the same school year and I found he fucked some other girl and I was like what the hell is going on call my friend test what was going on told my friend nails hamster what was going on and told everyone that he would listen what's going on in the first place didn't tell my parents because they thought that I would be nuts at the time.
Why did I choose this guy this was the beginning of the worst relationships of my life was the fact that he was cheating on me and my friend Tiff started to how would I say agree with anti-American more anti-American sympathies that were a little disturbing for me in the first place to hear when she said let's have a j*had. When she said that I was like what the fuck is going on with my friend and why is he saying that she was trying to scare him off but she scared me off and rage me dearly. I am at up saying staying with the bastard for quite some time and the bastard was all I had at the time because she was just write up nuts. Tish was straight up nuts that year and she was going to make sure everyone knew about how bad my boyfriend was in the first place where I can see that without acting like Osama bin Laden but that's what she did anyway and I was always going around covering my face because I was fucking embarrassed because of my ancestry Himalayan ancestry and Tibetan ancestry all those nice little cultures that I belong to that don't need to be associated with this trash.
I even remember having a nightmare that summer of her having sex with the Prince of Saudi Arabia now the King of Saudi Arabia and it still has me to this fucking day. Because she was a real nut bar she was really crazy and she was even saying all you had a dream about that oh joy. Is everything even bother her as if it was her in the first place and I was like what the fuck I was trying to think that I did not need people in my life to begin with at all at this time in the starter going to the loaner Road Except for going on my space now spacehey but I still my space at the time and I had to go on Facebook to find friends and stuff that we're actually saying and decent human beings to begin where they was very sad to think that way to begin with. So I stayed on my mothers computer most of the time was piss my mother off half of the time. She was not happy and thought I was obsessed with social media and she guessed right because I want to create a social media account 19 account but sorry one day of the social media and see what happens there there are many ways to create social media accounts I use yooco.org and the way I go but I can hardly get any followers on that site it's a pain in my ass. But is something I'm trying to work on usually after pay to make a social media so this is the only site that you can create without fucking up or fucking up your wallet if you know what I mean.