Loving me forever | book 2 of autosexual confessional ✔️

Yakuza aaagain

Because of the threat of Guantánamo Bay being looming over my damn head again I had a room adopt martial arts again particularly taekwondo is my guess and plan that I was mainly using at the time and I had a find out the hard way that my son boom or sensei was being a Cusa or Japanese mobster. When I found out about that I was very disturbed and hours like wondering what was going on and what the fuck was worth of tattoos and stuff. But I had no other choice but to go into that murky depth of a Japanese mafia to be correct yakuza, would be the more better terminology than Japanese mouth the other Japanese mafia or violent motherfuckers who have nothing better to do then try to intimidate money out of people when I am trying to live a life and scraped by there's a difference between Japanese mafia and yakuza if you look really close enough you will see the Tattoos have no difference but the tattoos are not any different but the personalities are different than the last. What I was dealing with worth and sensei was a Japanese Yakuza.   Yakuza honour Japanese mafia money there's a difference yakuza means you deal with the owner where is Japanese mafia you deal with money only. so when I found a dis code of honour was rehabilitating me from being a pain in the ass and societies rear I decided I was going to go take it and run with it and make it my own cold of honor. Which is still the Japanese yakuzi a cold of honour, but more gen teal there's no killing or anything like that there's more of a kindness to it instead of dress being tough guy and I want to know if tough there's different ways of being tough instead of being a pain in the ass to society there's other ways to be tough like sharing is caring for one thing and being helpful to other people is another way of being a bad ass tough person without lifting a finger on someone else unless you're trying to help them.
Also fending for people who have disabilities are also a way of showing that you're in a tough guy are tough girl in the first place you don't have to get in a fight and Leah finger on anyone in a bad way in order to say I'm tough I'm proud and I'm gonna be best. What do you have to do is you just have to get the fuck out of bed and see what life has to offer and go from there. That's how I would measure toughness in the first place I am more tough because I get out of bed every fucking day.
But there are some people like my ex who are really a pussy generation who are more or less stuck in their ways of being sorry for themselves and being psychopaths and not wanting to get out of bed and stuff like that and it really makes me sad that there is a waste of a good generation that could've been a wonderful generation the generation of 1983 to 2023 that generation has lost its respect with me as far as I'm concerned because I don't get out of bed and say well good fucking morning I want to tackle you.
I'm I only gonna start on my ex again so don't even worry about that but I'm just saying that some people have to there's some tough generations and then there's some wimpy generations that can't handle Manto illness or anything for that matter which leads into the next last chapter of this book which would be about my finding out where my phantom depressions were coming from in the first place.
Spoiler alert it started with me reading A book called shake hands with the Devil the rest was history from there because I was able to find out who I was mentally not just as a spaz out a retard but I also found out that I was supposedly very gifted 196 Iq, and I'm not bullshitting you and other things that we're going TikTok in my head as well that was wondering what was going on in my head when I read that book shake hands with the devil and open up the mind of Elena or my mind if you were to say and see what was going on in the first place what was making me take and what was making me talk what was making me go around acting like an animal sometimes to some of my friends and family if I had any friends but I did have family and they were the ones that got the brunt of it.
I'll tell you I learn another coping mechanism because of that book that helped cultivate my eyebrows again I used to pick my eyebrows a lot and high school because I had a lot of things obviously don't worry about.. But now I don't have to worry about half the shit anymore I can just go about my life and I found something that I only would see you in a Japanese yakuza movie a pair of metal silver balls or is that I like to call them the nerds. When I found out about the nerds are the Chinese stress balls I decided I was going to be in love with these things are used them a lot and pissed off my mother quite a bit more on there in the next chapter.