You haven't talked to the family member on your mother side or your dad side,
You call they say something and you feel 
Guilty to the bone of your flesh,
Aren't they good at making a kitten hide 
Away in the shadows even more,
"You only call me when you want something."
How knife turning that felt 
But you think in your head that's 
Why you don't call people or ask for help , not that you mother quit understand 
Because then she'll say over and over gain,
"In life you have to ask for it, even when 
You don't feel like, because then how will you,
get a across the ocean if there's no boat,
You agree with her but you replied 
"I rather swim."
                                      
                                          
                                   
                                              
                                           
                                               
                                                  