Concrete hell

Chapter 5

Atsushis pov :
He and Aktugawa walk to his room .
He chucks his stuff on the floor and Aktugawa does the same .
He gets a jumper out his wardrobe and is about to put it on till he sees red leaking I'm Through his school shirt.
"I'll be back in a second "
He walks to the bathroom and uses some of dazais bandages to re do them .
He puts on the jumper and walks.back to his room .
Aktugawa is laying on his bed staring at the ceiling.
Then pulls out the picture that was under his pillow .
"Wow you really are in the mood for disappointing dazai arena you ?"
"I don't really care right now do you have the project ?"
"Yeah stop being so bitchy "
Aktugawa gets it out his bag and hands it to Atsushi.
He leans on his desk whilst Aktugawa just goes on his phone.
He has to draw the book they are doing the report on .
Luckily atsushis is good at drawing so he does it with ease.
The door opens with chuuya and Dazai on the other side .
"We're going to the shop want anything to eat ?"
"I want ramen "
"Atsushi ?"
"I'm ok for now "
"Ok you good though right ?"
"Yes Dazai I'm fine "
"Ok we're be back soon don't kill eachother"
The door closes .
"What does he mean by that ? "
"None of your business "
"You got an eating disorder or something ?"
Aktugawa tries to laugh it off but noticed Atsushi wiping away tears .
"Jeez calm down I was only jocking "
"Whatever just shut up "
"So just asking you do don't you ?"
"I used to quite a bad one but I'm better now "
"So you throw you lunch away every day for sport ?"
"How did you-"
"I know everything and I'm not stupid about you cutting either "
Atsushi just stares .
'did he just say that ?'
"I found your blades in your desk while you were in the bathroom there gone now "
"What ?! Why would you do that ?"
"Because it's stupid"
"It's all I had you don't get it ! How could you ?"
Atsushi covers his face .
"Does Dazai know about it ? "
"No and don't you dare say anything please about either I'm begging you -"
"Fine I won't but you have to eat something and stop through you lunch away "
"Why do you care now or something ?"
"One of my old friends died from an eating disorder . And I know how you feel because I started cutting shortly after . But I was shit at hiding mine so chuuya walked in on me actually doing it . I don't anymore 2 years clean to be intact . It doesn't  help the way you think it does . Just tell me if you feel like doing it and I'll lay off at school I guess "
"Thanks or whatever "
"But how bad is it ? Mine hasn't scared or anything "
"I have a few scars I've been doing it for a while "
"When you start ?"
"1st year when the bullying did "
"Oh well makes sense I guess . Does Dazai not know about that ?"
"No he doesn't get into that sort of stuff-"
The door opens and Chuuya walks in .
"Ryu we have to go say bye your ramen is gonna get cold "
"Bye . Don't do anything "
"Ok . Bye "
Atsushi walks downstairs .
"Can - can I have something to eat please ?"
"Yeah ? Ok what do you want ?"
"I don't mind "
He sits on the couch and Dazai brings over some soup .
"So you doing a bit better now.?"
"I think so"
"Good keep it up . I know school is hard but you have to go to class Atsushi . "
"Ok"