Finding my own way

x 10

Ant's P.O.V

I lied there with mya in my arms thinking about what she just said to me. Her own mother killed her brother or sister and didn't have a care in the world. I wish that I could make mya mine so I could take her out of this place. All there is is pain,fear,and sadness.

Mya started to twist in her sleep as I held her. She turned her head to my chest and open her eyes. Those eyes have a great effect on me and she knew it. It was still raining and the power went out while she was sleeping. I kinda like it like this.

She looked at me and smiled. "Hey..what you still doing up?" "I wasn't really tired and I just wanted to make sure you was good ma."

She nodded her head."Oh ok. What time is it anyways?"

"It is around 2:30ish." I said.

"Well that means tha-" She got cut off by the door slamming. We sat there in silents while noise was being made. Mya didn't look like she cared at all.

"HOW COULD YOU KILL THEM KIDS WHEN YOU KNEW THAT I WANTED YOU TO KEEP THEM!" Her dad yelled.

"BABY I'M SORRY! I DIDN'T WANT THEM TO GROW UP IN THIS HOUSE WITH FUCKED UP PEOPLE, AND YOU KNOW IT!"

slap slap slap! Damn I thought to myself. I was about to get up but pulled back down by mya.

"Don't do anything." She said. We just sat there hearing her mother go through hell. Soon after everything got quite. Mya got out of bed and went to the bathroom.

I wounder how could she even sit there without doing anything. To me that sounds hella wrong. But I guess that she got so used to all of the beating and mistreated that she won't even let me do it.

She came back and wrapped herself in the covers and I pulled her into me. I guess she was tired cause I didn't hear her say anything to me. My eyes grew heavy and like that I was out.

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(The next day)

I woke up to mya looking down at me. I smiled and try to kiss her lips but she moved her head away. I got confused on why she did it. I sat up not wanting to hear what going to come.

"I have to ask you something." Nodding my head,"What is it?"

"Do you want to be with me? yes or no."

"Babygirl I don't-"

"Just answer the question because I don't have time to deal with anymore drama,lies,pain, secrets, and little boy shit that will only led me to nothing in the future."Mya said.

I looked at her.

"Yes I want to be with you. Your the only one I want to be with. I know that we don't know each other for a very long time but I really want to be with you. I could treat you better than that nigga did to you. I could love you more than that nigga can. Just give a chance to show you, baby." I said to her while holding her hand.

She looked at me with little teary eyed. Lifted her head up and brought her lips to mine. I crashed my lips into mine and gave her the most passionate kiss that I ever gave to her. (I guess from the other times we'd kissed)

She pulled away. "I think-" I cut her offed. "Don't tell me what you think-tell me what ...you feel."

"........I feel that someone is going to hurt me if I let them in my life.......I feel that I fond the right person that could help me with all my pain and sorrows and make me feel love."

"Then let me be that person to love you." She nodded her head let me kiss her over and over again. Peck after peck I fell for her even more. She pulled away and smiled.