Finding my own way

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Si'mya's P.O.V

Her name is Kim. She's three and a half with curly brown hair. She has dimples on each side of her face, even two on the side of her mouth. She had hazel almond shape eyes and natural arched eye brows. She's light skinned and her skin is very soft.

I sat there just watching her. Examining every little feature that she had. I thought about how much she looked like me and my mother. She even had jay's nose. That scared the hell out of me so much I started to cry a little. I missed him so much and the more I thought about him the more I wanted to be with him. He was always there for me when we was little and now that he's gone, all I see is pain and hurt in my life.

I closed my eye and broke down. All this drama with my parents just put mire pressure on me now that I have a sister to look after. I heard the door open and close but I didn't bother to look up. I felt ant's hands on my back, he made me stand up and just hugged me ever so tight.

After the hug I saw kim moving in her sleep. Seconds later she woke up. She stared at me and ant. She smiled when she saw ant. He smiled back at her, he kissed her on her forehead and told me that everyone will be outside. I nodded my head.

"Who are you?"

"My name is Si'mya.... your big sister." She stared at me.

She looked over to her tiny bag and pointed at it. I walked over there and gave it to her.

She looked through her bag until she got what she was looking for. She took what ever it was out and gave it to me. I looked at the paper and it was a picture of me when I was little and jay when he was a teenager. I saw my mom and my dad happy before everything. But something cough my eye, It was my mom and she was pregnant. Her stomach was hug but I couldn't remember anything about her being pregnant. I looked closer in the picture and it was the water in the background. I really couldn't remember then it hit me..I was going to Barbados for 3 years to stay with my aunt, and when I came back home weeks later jay died. She kept kim away from me all theses years. I was livid. How the hell can she keep away from me in some place, where other people could of hurt her and she didn't even care. OOOOOOOOOOO I can't stand her.

I looked up at her and walked towards the bed, I sat down and took off my shoes. She scooted over so I could lay down. I put my arms around her, and hugged her. She started to cry and that made me cry. We been separated for three and a half years, who knows how could of hurt her in those years.

We stayed like this for a long time until there was a knock at the door. It was ant. He gave me a nod at the door knowing he wants to talk. I got up and walked over to the door not making a peep cause kim was sleeping.

"How she doing in there ma?"

"She's ok now. My mother kept her away from me for three and a half years. I can't fucking stand her! Anybody could of hurt her in those years, But she didn't even care!" I yelled. Ant pulled me into a hug.

"I know baby, I know. But all that matters is that you got her now and no one can hurt her now or you ight? I got ya'll."

I just nod my head. " That means that ya'll staying with me. No if, ands, buts about it." I just nod my head.

The doctor came by and said that she could go home tomorrow and I was soo happy and that give me enough time to go shopping for her.

I let go of ant and walked to the waiting area and told jenny and johnny to come to the room.

I pulled jenny aside and asked her if she wanted to come with me, and she said sure.

Ant let me borrow his car and his cards which surprise me, but I just took it. The boys agreed to watch her while we're out. I just know it's going to be a long day.