Guardian Angel

Chapter 30 - An Apology

I groan sitting up on a bed, not being able to open my eyes. My head hurts like a bitch.

I slowly try my best to open my eyes to see I'm in the hotel in my pajamas and in bed. The balcony is wide open, and it looks to be early in the morning.

Leo is leaning against the balcony balustrade railing thing. He's looking out into the breathtaking view of the ocean, but he seems to be lost in thought.

He's wearing a robe and it seems like he just got out of the shower by his wet and messy hair.

Probably sensing my stare he turns around to look at me and walks into the room. He doesn't say a word and walks past me and into the closet.

A few minutes later, he walks back out changed into clothes with his hair still a bit messy as if he only raked his fingers through it.

"I'm going to make you breakfast." He speaks up in an almost cold way making me confused.

He walks out the room leaving me alone with my thoughts that are beginning to pile up. It's making my headache worse if it's possible. I get up and go to take a shower to then get ready for today.

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I kept overthinking while showering, brushing my teeth, and basically doing my whole morning routine.

Did I say or do something yesterday that upset him?

I don't remember anything which means I definitely blacked out. The last thing I remember was a random girl emptying almost a whole bottle of tequila down my throat. I went a bit out of control.

I walk into the kitchen to see him waiting for me with a delicious smelling and looking breakfast. I take a seat and he begins to eat and I do the same.

It's silent. He's not even looking at me or making a single noise. I try to eat in silence as well since he is but it just annoys me very badly.

I place my fork down immediately and I stare at him. Noticing that, he looks at me confused.

"What's wrong?" I must know so that I can fix it. This relationship won't last if he isn't going to communicate and just act like a fucking brat.

"Nothing." That word makes me want to pull my hair out and slap him across his face.

"Leonid, if you don't talk right now I'm getting up and going home right this instant." It hurts me to say this but I need him to actually try.

"You don't remember last night?" He sighs placing his fork down and giving me his full attention.

"No, not really." I shake my head and I become anxious.

"What did I do?" I ask ready to apologize for whatever idiotic thing I did.

"You left dinner to go and get drunk with strangers." He looks more disappointed in me leaving him than he looks mad.

I totally forgot to inform him about it. I was too distracted with talking to the random girls I met that I completely forgot.

"I know. I'm sorry." I instantly apologize to him.

"I knew you would be bored and I had something planned for us to make it up to you." He informs me and it makes sense and I understand why he is upset.

"I'm sorry, Leonid." I sincerely apologize once again.

He looks at me softly and gives me a kiss on the back of one of my hands. He then gets up with his plate that he places near the sink before disappearing into one of the extra bedrooms.

My chest fills with so much guilt and regret.

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I fiddle with my blanket as I stare at the pretty sky and ocean.

I've been out on the balcony of the bedroom since breakfast. I've just been thinking and sitting in silence. The only noise around me being the waves of the ocean and birds.

I came to the conclusion that I am in love with Leonid and I am absolutely terrified of hurting him.

His footsteps interrupt my thoughts. He walks out from the room and looks over at me and then takes a seat beside, placing an arm around my shoulder. He pulls me close to him and gives me a kiss on the head.

I back away from him and turn to look at him.

"I'm sorry." I apologize once more and I won't stop until he accepts my apology.

"Don't apologize." Or he can just tell me that.

"What if this was a sign that we shouldn't be together? Maybe we're not meant to be." That's the other thing I was thinking about.

"We shouldn't-"

"Stop." He interrupts before more bullshit spews out of my stupid mouth.

"I'm sorry for acting stupid. I can't be mad when I am fully aware of how you are." He grabs my chin and runs his thumb across my bottom lip.

"How am I?" I squint my eyes with a small smile. He is staring at me in a way that makes me want to tell him that I am in love with him.

"Perfect." He softly says staring down at me.

"I will do everything I can to be more than enough for you so that you'll never get bored of me." There seems to be a lot on his mind and I want to know what it is.

"I want to be enough for you because I love you."

I stop breathing.

I back away from him and stand up. I don't know what you do after someone tells you that they are in love with you.

"Gianna..."

I turn around to look at him and he looks almost afraid of what he said.

"You love me?" I question, my gaze softening at the thought of it because it's slowly dawning down on me.

Leo stands up and gets very close to me. He takes my face in his hands looking at me nicely and softly with his gorgeous grey eyes.

"I love you." He repeats and there isn't a single lie in his words or in the way he is looking at me.

I lightly smile because my body feels like I'm being lit up with fireworks. I grab his face and kiss him.

It's my way of telling him that I love him back.

I can't physically say the words because I don't feel like I'm ready to say them yet. I just hope that he is patient with me and doesn't feel like he isn't enough for me.

"I love you so much." He whispers against my lips and I fall more in love with him.

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