Tormented✓

Chapter 44

The morning light wakes Leora up from her deep sleep. She stretches her body and found that all of her body is so sore. Remembering the event from last night makes her face is red and in panicked she covers her self with the blanket.

She doesn't dare to look around. She is to scared to face him after what happened. Last night doesn't feels real and right. She scared that after this she will loose everything. She scared that after this he will be different. But she still have to respect their vow.

Suddenly guilt, shame, and all the bad feelings creeping in her hearts. She can't avoid the tears that came rushing from her emotions. After last night some part of her feels lost. She can see why virginity is a big part of a woman. Even when she feels pleasure beyond her comprehension last night, she only feels sadness right now. She can't deny that their connection is become more intimate and close, like she can feels him. But now all of the good feelings last night it's just seems vanished.

Like the smoke after a distinguish fire, that's what she feels like now. The empty bed beside her, makes her sadness ten times worse than before. Some part of her want everything to disappear, but another part of her want to reminiscence everything that happens last night. She wants to makes his lingering touch disappear but at the same time she want to have his lingering touch everywhere and everytime.

The sounds of door opening makes her hide behind the blanket once again. She close her eyes tightly and hide her cries. When Matteo walks to her she tighten her grips on the blanket, she scared that he will opens it. She doesn't know how to speak up her feelings right now. And she is sure when he sees her in this conditions, he will make a big fuss about it.

"Wake up. Here, eat breakfast." Matteo says, sitting at the end of the bed after putting the breakfast he just cooked for her.

"Are you sick?" He asks in worry and try to uncover her.

"Leave me alone." She shout with a tremble voice, make him realize that she is crying.

He tores the blanket forcefully. Looking at her pitiful appearance makes him sighs in worry. He cover her naked body with blanket and bring her into his lap. She tries to wiggles away but after realizing her naked stated, she stop struggling and comply to him.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying? Am I to harsh yesterday? Are you sore?" He asks while cupping her face gently to look at him.

His gentle action makes her crying even more. She cuddles him and stick to him like a koala.

"Shut up." She shrieks and hide in his body again.

"It's okay, everything gonna be okay." He says gently while stroking her hair.

He keeps saying a sweet words and comfort her until her crying stopped.

"Eat first and talk." He says and feed her a scope of rice. Silently she opens her mouth and accept his food.

"I'm sorry." She mumbles slowly after finishing chewing her food.

"It's okay. Just tell me what is wrong? Hmm..." He asks gently and scoop her another spoon.

"I don't know either, maybe I just feeling blue after what happened last night." She says and look at his eyes.

"Do you regret it?" He tries to hide his disappoinment in his eyes.

"No! I'm happy that we are becoming one now." She shouts and hold his hands in hurry, scared that he will get the wrong idea about her emotion.

"I see." He says gently with a small smile in his face.

"It's just maybe it's shocked me to realize that I'm not one person anymore. Now I have someone I should take care and love. We are a family, a new one. I just hope I can fulfill my role as a wife. Now that I belong to someone, I can't do anything the way I usually do." She says with a small voice unsure about what she says.