Worst In Me N.S.

Ch.24 Showing Love

Noah

She's been really distant from everyone over the last few days, and it really worries us. She's not talking to Taylor and she's only energetic when we are doing a concert. Today we do our last and final concert until September when we have Blue Ridge Rock Fest. But she's been miserable.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to help. And I definitely don't want to reach out to the only other person who may know how to help her when she's like this. All of us are getting ready but she won't look at anyone. I look over at Taylor who I then motion to meet me over by the bunks.

We both walk over there and look at AJ sitting next to Kingsley.

"Do you have Aiden's number?" I ask.

She looks at me, confused. As much as I don't want to go to her ex for help, I have too.

"Yea I do" she says then pulls out her phone.

I smile at the cute picture she has as her lock screen of her and Jolly. I then see her home screen which is her and AJ when she first moved into the dorms. She goes into her contacts and pulls up Aiden's number who's currently under Asshole. I snicker then pull out my phone.

I see my lock screen and it's me and AJ asleep on the couch that Miles took. I open my phone and go into my call. I type his number down then thank her. She goes back over to AJ and I step into the back area.

xxx-xxx-xxxx- Um Hello?

Me- Hey man. It's Noah. I need some help. It's about AJ.

xxx-xxx-xxxx- What's going on? Is she okay?

Me- She slipped into this depression the other day after telling me about Fenton. I don't know what to do because she's not really talking to anyone. Not even Taylor. I know you and Taylor are the only two who know about Fenton, but something tells me it's different.

xxx-xxx-xxxx- What makes you say that?

Me- She keeps looking down at her arms...

He goes silent for a second.

xxx-xxx-xxxx- Have you noticed anything on her arms or even her legs?

Me- No. I don't think she relapsed but I'm not sure. She isn't talking to anyone. Not even me.

xxx-xxx-xxxx- She's either considering relapsing which is better than the second option...

Me- Which is?

xxx-xxx-xxxx- She's contemplating suicide!

My heart fucking sinks.

Would she really try to kill herself?

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AJ

I've been distant from everyone over the last week and a half. I don't know how to communicate my feelings anymore and with everything going on, I've been contemplating relapsing, but I don't want Noah or Taylor or even the guys to see me like that. I don't want them to think I wanna die because though I do, I'm deeply afraid of death.

We are currently listening to the crowd chant 'Bad Omens.'

I stand backstage with Kingsley's leash in hand and wait for Noah to give me the cue to come on stage with him.

"Welcome to Bad Omens Cult. I wanna talk to you guys about something really quick. Someone very close to me, you guys may know her as Angel. We know her as AJ. She's going through a really hard time right now with her past coming back to haunt her. As most of you know, we had to cancel our Raleigh performance after someone made a huge disturbance. This disturbance led to her opening up to me about some things but since then, she's gone quiet. I don't know how to express my feelings all too well, but I want you guys tonight to show her some love. Let her know she's loved and wanted here. She's the most beautiful, kind, talented woman I've ever met in my entire life. AJ, please join me on stage" Noah announces.

My heart just melted. I walk up on stage with Kingsley as the guys begin playing Burning Out acoustic style.

"Acaria Jayce. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone in my entire life, and I just want you to know that we are all here for you. I'm so sorry you had to go through all you did but you have us all here for you no matter what. You are strong, you are powerful, you are independent. You are the love of my life, and I will cherish you for the rest of my life. I love you so much baby girl and don't you ever forget that" he says holding my hand tightly.

He stands up and pulls me into a tight hug.

"I love you babygirl" he says, then begins singing.

I love him so much. So So So much.

I can't leave him. I can't leave this earth. I can't do that to him.

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Noah

The concert was a success and she smiled for the first time in almost a week and a half. Miles took us to a hotel for the night before our flight back to LA tomorrow. I have decided that I'm going to go ring shopping when I get back. I know that I love her, and I know she loves me. I am planning on proposing to her in September at Blue Ridge Rock Fest in front of everyone.

I never want to see her sad the way she was for this last week. I want to feel and be happy. Tonight, she saw how much the fans love her. There was a lot of hate being thrown her way when we had to cancel the Raleigh concert and I know she took it pretty hard.

As I wait for her to come out of the shower, I scroll through Instagram while petting Kingsley. Her phone lights up and I see it's a message from Aiden.

Aiden: Hey beautiful. Got to see your concert from tonight. Noah is so good to you, and I hope he makes you super happy. I'm sorry for making issues when you first met him. I hope that maybe one day he and I can be friends. I hope he continues to treat you right. Love you always. Sleep well.

I actually smile reading the message. Though I was upset with him in the beginning, he's really changed and shown it. He's supportive of our relationship and he isn't stepping over boundaries. I hear the shower stop and I smile. I set her phone down and opened mine back up. I see several pictures of me and her singing on stage. All the songs we sang tonight were done acapella.

She comes out of the bathroom drying her hair with her towel. She's in one of my shirts and no pants but in this moment, I don't see her rockin 'body, I see my beautiful hearted girlfriend. I hop off the bed and walk up behind her in the mirror. I wrap my arms around her causing a small smile to appear on her face.

"You were amazing tonight babygirl" I say to her.

She blushes hard as she holds my arms.

"I can't wait to sign to Sumerian with you" she says.

She giggles and turns around. I hold her tightly and kiss her softly.

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with this girl.

She's a blessing. My blessing.

(PSA: There is maybe only two or three chapters left of the story. It's been an honor getting to write for you guys again. I hope you guys have enjoyed the story thus far.)

Song: Glass Houses by Bad Omens