The Rehearsal

Please

I ran from the kitchen to find Janet looking out of the window, I could tell I was in trouble by the way she looked at me. She was shaking her head with hurt behind her eyes. I tried to put my arms around her but she backed away making me feel even worse. That was the first time she's ever rejected me like that.

"You couldn't wait till we were alone to say that"
she whispered.

"They're family Janet maybe they should know" 

"Shhh you've already embarrassed me enough"
she said looking me up and down.

"I'm sorry" I whispered.

"No it's my fault for thinking we were on the same page"

"What baby I'm confused what are you talking about?"

"I want to build a family Chris. Make babies and have them go to college-- I'm sorry Janet but that's not what I want for my future" I said cutting her off.

"Lets finish this conversation when my sisters leave because I'm pissed off right now" she said while walking past me.

Once Janet and I were alone I went straight to my PlayStation to relieve some stress. But Janet just wouldn't let me be. I could hear her walking back and forth behind my back. Ignoring her I put on my headset and started a game with one of my friends.

"You see that shit? When did they update the game?... YO that's crazy I got 5 kills and we just started" I said while speaking into my headset.

It was like nothing had happened that day, the game cleared my mind of everything. But for some reason while I was having fun Janet decided to stand right in front  of the screen and pose with her hands on her hips. Shaking my head I gently pulled her out of the way by pulling her right arm. Being hard headed she stood in front of the screen again this time with her back facing me.

"MOVE" I yelled.

Janet slowly turned around looking at me with the craziest look on her face.  I was honestly a little worried because this was a side of her that I never saw before.

"DAMN'IT THEY KILLED ME ARE YOU HAPPY" I yelled before throwing my controller at the wall.

Throwing the controller was the first thing that came to mind as I started to feel my blood boil. I wasn't  necessarily mad at Janet ruining my game. But I was mad because she was taking everything I said so personal. I instantly left the room as I felt I was going to do or say something I would regret.

"Oh my god you put a hole in the wall!"

I could hear Janet whining but I was too angry to go back there. Eventually she found me outside on the patio rolling a blunt.

"You know I hate when you smoke" she whined.

"Janet I'm not in the mood to be talking to you right now" I said looking at the paper.

"When will you be ready to talk you've been ignoring me all day" she asked getting closer.

"What do you want from me Janet?"

"Do you really not see yourself having children one day?"

"No I never did and I never will. I'm sorry but you can't change my mind" I said making eye contact with her.