The Rehearsal

New Beginnings

Janet POV

The night that Chris left me alone I couldn't fall asleep. My thoughts kept me up not letting me get any rest. I had thought about Chris and asking myself if I did the right thing. As it got later into the night I stayed up wondering where Chris was and who was he with. I was temped to call his phone but something in me said it was a bad idea. What made it even worse was everything reminded me of him. The pillows in my bed smelt like him and the rooms reminded me of the love we made. What made it worse is I thought about how I'm going to miss him and his sex. I could already tell the next few months will be hell.

Somehow I managed to get one hour of sleep because I woke up to a noise in my room. After opening my eyes I jumped to the sight of Chris in my room. He was grabbing his things and moving fast too.

"Hey" I said sitting up.

"Hey" he replied while leaving the room.

I jumped out of bed and followed him on his way downstairs to seeing his mother on the couch. She smiled at me while I awkwardly smiled back.

"Hi Ms. Brown" I said to her.

"Good morning Janet, I just came here to help my son"

"It's okay your welcomed to stay"

I stood there anxious as I watched Chris walk back and forth from the house to his car. He packed up in a hurry ignoring me. He never made eye contact with me not once. I felt invisible, see through, transparent, it made me feel ten times worse. I couldn't watch the man I love pack up to leave my life so I ran to the kitchen to do what I always do when I'm depressed. I ate my heart out eating at all of my snacks but I stopped once his mother entered the kitchen.

"Hey, I always liked you for Chris. I always liked you period your Janet Jackson" she said making me laugh.

"But I say all that to say that you made the right decision" she finished.

"I don't feel like it"

"Give it sometime you'll see. He's young and a little too immature for what you want right now-- Ma I'm done" Chris yelled from the other room.

"Well I got to go if anything you got my number ok. Be safe"

"You too Ms. Brown"

As I walked Ms. Brown to the front door I found Chris waiting outside. Once I was all alone he came to me handing me his house key.

"I won't be needing that anymore" he said looking down.

He was still avoiding my eyes and it hurt me. It felt like someone was stabbing me in the heart.

"Look at me, in my eyes" I demanded.

I could see the hurt behind his eyes once he looked into mine. There was emotion there that I never saw in his eyes before. He couldn't look at me for long because he turned his head looking away.

"I love you" he said giving me one last hug.

"I love you too" I said closing my eyes as I squeezed him.

Months later I was on tour feeling much better about my love life. I was single and busy it felt good to be working again. I'm at my best whenever I'm working especially on tour. Tour is my favorite stress reliver my mind is too busy to think about Chris and I have some of my favorite people there to talk too. Gil and Tina always insured me that I made the right decision leaving Chris. And life stared to finally feel normal once Michael and I started talking again.

"I'm sorry to hear about you and Chris" Michael said through the phone.

"Why are you sorry?"

"It was wrong of me to hold a grudge like that I see that now. But he made you happy and treated you right. And that's all that I could ask for. But it's over now and you'll fall in love again"

"Ugh but I don't want to"

"Yess I want a niece or nephew at least one Dunk"

"Are you going to find me the father?"

"Sure I know somebody for you right now I can send you his number-- NOOO Michael I'm just playing" I said laughing.

Chris and I lost communication he never reached out and neither did I. Moving on was hard till I saw him with other woman on the blogs. No matter who was in my life I will always have a place for Chris in my heart.

How do you feel about the ending? Do you think Chris and Janet could've worked out they're differences?

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