Even if I'm gone, just know I love you

Chapter 3: The secret

Part 3: a week later

Ethan's point of view
I'm scared to leave my parents again, but at the same time I know they will be okay. Besides, my dad just hurt his hand while trying to get the furniture of his truck. My mom reassured me they would be okay and told me to go back to my dream place..New york. And I'm excited to go back knowing Anora likes me too and we have a date.
I'm at the airport waiting for Sammy to pick me up while I go on my phone looking at the messages me and Anora this past week. I then feel someone wrap their arms around me on my side and I look to see Anora hugging me and Sammy trying not to laugh.
"She begged me to take her with me." Sammy said with a giggle.
I hugged her back obviously. She has her hair down and it's longer than I thought.
She lets go and looks at me "I can't wait for that date tomorrow." she says.
"Alright, alright let's get you love birds in the car." Sammy says as if she's annoyed.
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As Sammy drives me and Anora are in the back and she's holding my hand tightly. We talk about what happened this week and Anora stays quiet. Sammy then says that her and Anora became good friends which is good. We then stop at my apartment and Sammy drops me off.
Before I close the car door I look at Anora "You're not coming?" I ask.
"Do you want me too?" She asked.
"Of course I do," I say.
She gets out of the car and I close the door. I then hold her hand and walk up to my apartment. While I'm trying to open the door Anora looks like she's In a different world.
Anoras point of view
Do I still love aiden?
Yes.
Do I love Ethen?
I don't know yet.
Will I force myself to love Ethen?
Yes.
Will I force myself to forget Aiden?
Yes.
Do I want to play Ethen?
No, but I've never felt this loved before.
"Anora, you okay?" Ethen asked.
How the hell do I even answer that "Ya of course I'm fine"
"Oh ,alright I'm going to make us a cup of tea, you can sit down on the couch and watch tv If you want" He says.
When I walk in, It's a small one bedroom apartment. I walk to the couch and sit down. Right next to it is a big window. I look and see all the buildings because we are on level seven right now. I get up and walk up to it to see a better view. I feel pathetic and stupid. I'm lying to a guy that I like him but really I don't think I do. I really do but my heart aches for aiden. The more I think it makes me sick. Then I feel a warm arm grab my waist. I look to my side and it's Ethen, he smells good to be honest. He looks at me and smiles with his two dimples, brown fluffy messy hair, tan skin, and cute round face.
The smile fades and he asks "are you okay? You look upset."
"Why is the bakery so colorful and pink?" I say.
"That's what you're upset about?"He says.
"No but it's a question I ask everyday now." I say.
He giggles and looks at the window and sighs "I honestly don't know, Sammy always loved colorful stuff but of course pink."
We stay quiet for a bit.
"Why did you come to New York at such a young age?" he asks.
He knows I came from California, I've told him.
"I'm only nineteen, that's not that young. How old were you and Sammy when you came from florida?" I replied.
"Sammy was twenty, then at twenty one she opened the bakery, at twenty two I came, I was twenty. I've been here for one year. But the reason I came was because of the college here NYCU. I'm thinking of being an author." he says.
I look at him. He has such a good happy reason to live here and I'm here because I simply ran off.
"I ran away.'' I say with no hesitation.
"What?" He says as he quickly turns to me.
"I ran away. My parents were mentally abusive. My brother left when I was young and I don't know where he is. And I used some of the money I had for one stupid therapy session. Honestly I just want to live my life, have a family, have a coffee shop of my own or cafe."
He looks at me as if he feels bad, I hate it. I hate people feeling bad, just be grateful I'm alive or something. He pulls me in and hugs me, honestly I want to push him away but I act like I like it. At some point I pushed him off gently.
"I'm going to go use your bathroom," I say.
Luckily the two doors are open so I can tell which is the bathroom. Once I go in and lock the door I wish the day is just over already so I can go home and watch some sort of show on my laptop like a comedy,romantic,fanfic, or something. But I have to keep a secret that I don't know how long I could.