Even if I'm gone, just know I love you

Chapter 7:The mistake

Part 6: the next day
Anoras point of view
"You really don't have to drive me to work. I could have just walked or told Ethan to take me."I tell Brett as he drives. As I was getting ready Brett came early and insisted on taking me to work. I think it's his way of wanting to spend more time with me. I told Rory I would be back in the afternoon and to grab anything to eat.
"The hell I'm letting you walk, it's freezing out. Besides, I'd rather hang out with my sister then stay in a hotel room and watch the kardashians twenty four-seven." He says. I giggle a bit.
"Why don't you just stay with me. My apartment is literally big enough for me, you, and Rory but yet it's half empty." I say.
"HA, that kid is a piece of shit. I've seen how she treats you." He says with a smirk.
"Shut up" I say giggling.
...
When I enter the coffee shop it looks really busy.
I should have come earlier.
I try to find Aiden in the crowd of people. Once I saw him at the back counter making as many drinks as he could.
I walk over and start grabbing coffees to hand to people.
"God, thank goodness you came, Nor." Aiden says "I don't know what i'd do without you" He says giggling. I smile and start handing the coffees out one by one.
Wait, did he just call me Nor?
I get it, it's an odd nickname but the only people who ever called me that were friends back in california and sometimes Brett.
Nor, how I missed that name.
...
As the shop gets less busy, It's easier to handle. The sun is setting and it's almost time to close. There's only a couple and a group of teenage friends. As I clean I start to realize Aiden isn't here. Once they were all gone I quickly put the sign to close. I look around and then I see the back door open. It leads me to an alleyway. I turn to my right and see Aiden Smoking a cigarette.
"Oh Shit!" He yells trying to blow the smoke away as if I didn't see it.
"If you give me one i wont tell?" I say in a snarky way.
"Hell no you're not old enough!" he says.
"So aren't you, yet here we are with a cigarette in your hand.?" I say crossing my hands.
"Aren't you supposed to be inside?" He asks.
"I closed down for you. You're welcome?" I answer.
He rolls his eyes and grabs a cigarette from his jacket pocket and hands it to me.
"Thanks, by the way you're smoking it wrong." I say.
"How the hell do you know?" he asks.
"I did it all the time in high school, manly because I was a depressed bitch hating her life." I say trying to light the cigarette.
"So what's your reason?" I ask.
He sighs. "You know that feeling when you like someone a lot but you know the relationship isn't working but you also don't want to end it because you really do like them, just not love them?"
Yes, I do know that feeling.
I nod.
"Are you talking about Maya?" I ask.
He nods.
"I mean I do really like her, I just don't love her. She just cares about her dad and money but obviously I don't have that type of money. I mean look at me, I'm the owner of a family business that's literally a coffee shop." He says.
I stop smoking. I look at his face, he looks guilty and so do I.
I hold his hand.
I shouldn't be holding it.
But it feels right.
He looks at me and I look at him.
Oh, Aiden.
He drops the cigarette on the ground and grabs my face.
He shouldn't be doing this.
"Anora.." he whispers.
I can't.
I grab his shirt and kiss him.
I shouldn't be doing this.
But it feels right.
Please, I hope I'm not imagining this.
"You okay?" he says giggling while holding me.
"What! Oh, ya I'm fine." I say.
"Okay then, you wouldn't mind if i do it again right?" he says.
Before I can even answer he brings his lips close to mine again and kisses me.
It's not a dream.
I'm glad it's not.
But ethen..
Oh, ethen.
I like him, but I don't love him the way I do with Aiden. I think I'm happier with Aiden.
And I'm glad I'm not imagining this.