Even if I'm gone, just know I love you

Chapter 9: The two men

Part 7: A week later
Anoras point of view
This past week was fun with Rory. We told each other's secrets, we talked shit about people (mainly Maya),We watched movies, I even introduced her to Sam (They flirted with each other the whole time) and overall it was fun. But today Ethen invited me over so I left her alone and told her she could hang out with Sam if she likes.
"You're putting too much sugar ,Anora!!!" Ethen yells at me. We have been trying to make cupcakes in his apartment, well manly Ethen. When I try to do something he yells at me saying I'm adding too much, too little, but overall just wrong.
"Then you fucking do it, smart ass!!" I yell back.
"God, how I like the way you talk to me." He whispers as he grabs my face to kiss me.
"Okay Okay now move so I can finish this." He says.
I sit on the counter and watch him add the ingredients then as he mixes them together. He then lets me put the batter in the tray and put them in the oven.
"Now what the hell do we do as we wait?"I ask.
He grabs me from behind and kisses my neck. "We can finish this on the couch? Or on the counter as you like." He says.
"Why move when we can do it here, and I mean now."I say.
He pushes me toward the counter and zips open both our jeans. I grab on to his neck as I kiss him. He puts his member inside me but I can barely make a sound because of his kissing.
"I don't want to hurt you."He tells me.
"Trust me, go as hard as you want." I told him.
And he does. I want to make a sound but I'm too busy kissing him.
"I- I can't do it anymore please!" I beg.
"Do you want me to stop, dear?" He asks.
"If you stop, I'll grab one of your knives and cut your throat open! I'm begging you, dont fucking stop!"I scream.
He doesn't stop. But I still crave his lips with mine. I pull him closer and smash my lips with his.
...
Me and Ethen are sitting on his couch eating the cupcakes we just made and acting like that just didn't happen. I got a text and I saw its from Aiden.

Miss you. Can I see you at 9 pm? I'll drive to your apartment.

I miss him too but I cant keep seeing him like this. This past week after work, we have been fucking or making out in his office.
I can't leave Ethen like this.
"Who is that?" Ethen asks.
"Oh, just Rory asking me where the pasta is at. She wants to make some I guess."
That's a lie.
"Ohhh The little sister of your boss's girlfriend right? Ya how is she? Sam looks like she likes her" He asks.
"Well at first she was a pain in the ass, now she's fun. She's actually considering living here, getting a job, and maybe staying as a roommate which is nice due to me having lots of space."I say.
"Oh. I was actually thinking that maybe me and you could live together, or is that too soon"
Shit.
I guess it's not too soon. But like rory said At some point I have to tell him.
"Actually...Ethen."
I can't do it today though.
"Can we talk about this some other time? I actually have to go. My boss said he had something to do at work."
I can't keep lying to him.
"Oh, ya that's fine. I'll take yo- '' I interrupt him.
"No! It's fine I can go on my own."

...
I walk inside my apartment and drop my stuff on the shelfs near the door. I walk to the living room to see Rory and Sam making out.
"Well I should have called first." I say.
"Shit! I'm sorry I should go-" Sam tries to say.
"No it's fine, I have to go anyway." I say and turn back around and grab my stuff. I'm happy for Rory and Sam of course but I really need Rory to talk to right now. If Sam found out, she would be disappointed.

...
I wait at the stairs for Aidens car to pull up. Once it does he comes out.
"I think we should take this to the back." he says, opening the back door.
"Actually we need to talk, and no funny shit." I say getting in.
He gets in and closes the door. It's just us now, sitting there.
"So, what do you want to talk about, sweetheart?" he asks. His head is tilted back facing me with a smile.
Shit, he needs to stop before I kiss him myself.
"We can't keep doing this Aiden! You have Maya, I have Ethen. We can't hurt them."
He grabs my face and kisses me."Then we will break it off with them. Clearly we love each other, not them. And I would do anything, maybe even kill, just to hold you, just to call you mine, just to love you, Anora"
No, we can't do that to them.
He pulls me close and kisses my neck, slow and soft.
"I love you, Anora" He whispers in my ear.
Fuck it.
I push him down, take off his shirt then mine. I kiss his lips, his neck, his chest, and all the way down till I reach it. I zip down his jeans then I kiss his member all the way to the tip. I can hear him groaning and calling my name. He then grabs me and suddenly he is on top of me. He starts kissing my neck and I can't help but moan for him as I play with his hair. He unzips my jeans and starts fingering me. Before I can make a sound he covers my mouth.
"You started it." He says.
He switches, it's his member that's inside of me now, and he's not scared of going rough.
"You fucking want that huh?" He says.
But I can't answer. I'm too busy screaming how good it feels.
I want him to do this until I can't walk, but I don't want this to end.