PROTECT YOU <JUNGKOOK X READER>

CHAPTER FORTY

Y/n

"Sleep with me."

My mind blanked at the word I just heard. I don't dislike his wish. I can feel my hands shaking, the tragedy of that night he forced me in our wedding night came back. I know I can trust him now because he is changed. Last night is the prove. He just hold me without doing anything but sleeping. I'm awake and I know that we fall asleep there, but I didn't wake him up because I trust him.

But being in bed with him with the door close and only two of us, is sounds terrifying.

"It's okay if you can't, I understand, I'm not going to forced you." He said, and I look at him. He's smiling at me, wiping all the doubts.

I look down and pull my hands away from his chest and put them on his arms.

"I'm sorry." I mumble slowly and avoiding his gaze.

"It's okay," he pull me into his arms for a hug and I rest my head on his chest. Closing my eyes to feel him close.

"Good night, sweetheart." He pull away and let me go, the cold starting to attack when he doesn't hug me anymore. It's odd, but that's the truth. I look up to him. Regretting my decision.

"Good night."

He smile before leaving to his room. Some words stuck in my throat and never came out. When he's already enter his room, the door close make me realise I was such a fool. I walk towards my room and locked the door. I hurry go to my bed and slipped under my blanket.

The guy just want to feel affection. He wants to feel loved just like what he said to me today. He reveals so many unspeakable fact, I just know his parents is never been there for him and he was abandoned at the orphan house since he was so little. He grow up without his family and must be hard for him to survive. I can feel him because my parents is also passed away.

Oh my God, what have I done?

I cover my face with full of regret. I'm sure I won't be sleep tonight. He mentioned about last night just because he wants to keep the warmth of love with me, not in a sexual way.

At midnight is worse, I still can't fall asleep and now I feel thirsty. I forgot to bring my water with me.

I get out of my bedroom and goes out the kitchen. I saw the light is on and I hear the sounds of water poured at the glass. Someone is in there already?

Hoseok drink his wine alone as I peek. I want to turn around and just run back at my room but it was too late. He knows my presence as he turn around, his cheeks is red, he's drunk.

"Hey, sweetheart, why are you awake?" He said, and I stand near the door and look at him bewildered.

"I'm, I forgot my water."

"Come here." He said, calling me to come closer.

"You always forgot your water, hm?" He reach my hand and tracing my cheek with his thumb.

"I thought you're sleeping?" I sat at the stool next to him.

"I can't sleep when I feel lonely, I have always been lonely this whole time but I just pretending that I'm fine." He's drunk, genuinely. I wonder how many glasses he's been drank. I calmly smile to him.

"Do you want some coffee?"

"Hm? Why? Am I look drunk?"

"Yes you are," he smiles pulling away his hand from me.

"Hm, okay." I chuckles and I can see his cheeks red, either by alcohol he consume or simply blushing.

I get up from my seat and making him a coffee to make him feel better. I took the bottle of wine away from him and give him the cup of coffee and cold water. He drink it slowly and his reaction is nothing but cuteness.