Jungkook
I sat on the bed seeing my little girl patiently feed me. I just wake up and it's already pass nine. I looked at her, she's pale and constantly tired because of me. She's not sleeping well and driving here and to my rented apartment to get my stuff. The shooting is on break, I couldn't focus. I'm not sure what I feel right now, I feel lost like the first time. The only power I have right now is a sparks of hope about the girl I saw in my memory, but can't clearly see her face. It was frustrating me.
"No, I don't want it, I'm full." I avoid the third spoon of soup which I know it will make Nara disappointed because I keep refusing foods.
"Please, one more, you barely eat anything, Jungkook."
"I don't feel like eating." I look away.
"Alright." She gave up and put the bowl on a tray. He took another box from her own paper bag.
"I made gimbab, you want some?" She open the box and I can smells the delicious food she made. I smiles at her cute face.
"Maybe one." Although I don't have appetite, I eat the food.
I eat four pieces of gimbab she made, just like one my mom always made. She doesn't know I was here, and she never will, because I wasn't planned to make her worried and take a flight here.
She clean up the tray and put them aside and help me changed my clothes since it was dirty. I haven't take a shower since yesterday because I feel headache like everyone never had before. I think I must caught tumor or something in my brain, but it was because I was forcing myself to remember my past, I know the consequences when I try hard, it will effect my brain and surely, my health, so doctor always advised for me to just let it go.
"I can do it myself. You can wait here." I told her, and she's nod weakly, holding my hospital gown and sit down in front of the bathroom.
"Call me when you need anything."
"Okay."
I went inside and licked the door. I look my reflection in the mirror and looked terrible. I have been trouble sleeping for days since I came here, I keep seeing her in my dreams and I end up scream in my sleep and wake up with view of cold sweat. I fear to close my eyes, I need to get away from this thing, maybe go back home and rest after this all done. But how was that possible, giving this job to senior only make me looked incompetent. I was new in this career and I enjoy it a lot before this all started.
The jolt pain come straight to the left side of my head and I gripped onto my hair. I hissed in pain and counting to ten until it disappears. When it slowly gone, I breathe heavily. Taking my time to chill before step inside to the shower.
Nara gave me my clean clothes and I took it to changed inside the bathroom. The look on her face indicating that she must've felt my distance. And I realise that, I have been trying to keep my distance from her, I need time to overcome everything and not to give her the burden.
"You wanna take a walk in the park? I heard it's good and refreshing there." She said as she brush my hair. She's a make up artist anyway, she's good at her job.
"I see the park the other night already."
"You out of your room again?" She ask shockingly.
"I feel bored so I decided to take a night walk."
She stop, and I feel her moving in front of me and hold my hands. Her sad eyes stare deeply into mine. I feel guilty about it, I will not feel the same towards her anymore. She don't deserve me.
"Please get better soon, I need you." She said and bring my hands towards her lip and kiss them with her eyes closed.
"I am better, baby, I just need a moment alone." She nod in disappointment. I know she wanted to be there for me, but that's only adding my worries.
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Fanfiction"Hello, welcome to our neighborhood.. " she offer her hand for her to . she hesitantly take my mother's hand for a shake and she pull out shyly. "thank you so much. " "my name is Dr. Jeon Hana, and this is my son." she mentioned me as I come closer...
