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𝘆/𝗻 𝗽𝗼𝘃

Later that day, the pouges and I went to The Wreck to eat. We had been hanging out for the whole day, but I decided it was probably time to head home and confront my father about what I learned. The whole day with the pouges calmed my nerves and I felt confident in what all I needed to ask and say to him. 

"I'm gonna head home guys, I had a great time today!" I stood and said bye to them all. On the way home, I was struck with an overwhelming amount of anxiety. My hands began to sweat and I was shifting uncomfortably in my seat. I made it to the house though but I couldn't seem to get out of the car. 

 I watched the windows in the front of the house and saw how happy my dad was. He had his new wife, new kids. I realized I never fully processed the reality that he wasn't even my dad yet I felt so much resentment toward him for having this new family. I closed my eyes and finally mustered up the courage to walk in. I headed toward the front door and walked into to see them all having a great time. I stood by smiling. 

My dad spotted me soon enough and made his way over to me. "y/n, you're back." I suddenly noticed his black eye and bruised up cheek. 

"Dad what the hell happened to you?"

"Oh it's nothing sweetheart." He smiled and shook it off.

"It doesn't look like nothing." I responded concerned.

"I promise it's nothing. Plus I deserved it." He laughed.

"If you say so, um but can we talk?" I finally asked.

"Of course!" He said, guiding me to his office. I sat down ad he closed the door. "What's on your mind?"

"Did you know?" I spat out. 

He seemed taken aback but made his way to his desk. "Know about what."

"That I'm not yours and moms daughter. She found me outside and took me in."

He began to get teary eyed and just stared at me. Of course he knew. I wasn't upset though, I couldn't be.

"Yes y/n, I knew. She told me she'd tell you as soon as you turned 18 but I guess she never found the right time. I am very sorry. About everything. Your mom, your childhood, me, everything." At this point he was crying. I couldn't hate him or my mom. They did their best and I know that now. I stood and embraced my dad and we both cried. 

We spent the rest of the evening hanging out. I avoided Topper during this family time, but it was good to finally open up to Cynthia and Julie. 

Now that my family situation is now in a better place. I still had no idea what to do about Rafe. A part of me wishes it was just so much simpler. The other part of knows it's never gonna be that way. I feel I need to avoid him at all costs, but everything always pulls me back to him. 

That night I was sitting on my balcony reading when I heard someone knock. "Come in!" I called out. Topper appeared by the sliding door and I continued looking at my book to avoid eye contact. "Yes?"

"Rafe did that to our dad." He said nonchalantly. 

That shocked me, but not really. "And why would he do that?" I tried to sound uninterested.

"Everyone sees it y/n." 

This time I turned to him. "Sees what?"

"Whatever is going on between you and Rafe." 

I scoffed and turned back around. "There's nothing going on." 

"He didn't take you there to get you high and you know..." He started. 

"Then why did he take me there?" 

"I don't know, you should ask him that. But all I know is, he may cause harm, but he doesn't mean bad by it. If it's about you anyways." 

"What do you mean if it's about me?"

"I just mean he would purposefully cause you harm. Anyways, there's a party later. You should come." 

"I don't know..." I hesitated.

"Maybe you can ask Rafe why he brought you there, but I get it if you don't want to go. I'll text you the address in case you do want to show up." He smiled quickly and left. 

I was conflicted once again. Deep down I needed, and deserved to know why he really brought me to the party. Then again, I don't need to force that out of him. I sat with my book in hands going over every thought that crossed my mind. My phone lit up with a text from Topper which had the party's address. 

Fuck it. I'm going, but not to confront Rafe. To have a good fucking time and forget about everything for once.

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I arrived to the party and hour after it started and everyone seemed to be having fun. I walked in and headed straight for the drinks. I made myself drink after drink and chatted with a few cool people. The more I drank, the more I let loose. I was dancing, laughing with people I just met, and it felt great. It felt so good to not have Rafe on my mind or anything but the present moment. But knowing me and my life, that doesn't last very long. I saw Topper walking toward me but I gave no reaction. 

"y/n? You came, and you're very drunk." He sounded disappointed.

"Indeed I am." I laughed, taking another drink. 

"I think you had enough." He reached for my cup. I pulled it back and lifted my finger.

"Uh uh. I say when I've had enough. That's rude to invite someone to a party just to kill their vibe!" I slurred my words. 

"y/n, come on." He tried reaching for me but I stumbled back.

"Fuck you Topper." I laughed. "You're pathetic." At this point, we were catching the attention of people around us. 

"Pathetic? Look at you y/n, you need to come with me before you embarrass yourself." Topper contested, reaching for me again.

"No, I'm staying and I'm gonna have fun. All you and Rafe have ever done my entire trip is make it miserable, so you both can go fuck off and leave me alone." I pushed passed him and stumbled over my steps as I walked into the backyard. 

Sure enough, Topper came after me and with Rafe right behind him. Go figure. "y/n you need to leave now!" Topper called out. 

"No Topper you need to stop being such a loser! No wonder Sarah doesn't fucking like you anymore!" I called back. I probably shouldn't have mentioned her because Topper was fuming and walking straight for me. My delayed reaction didn't help because now he had my face scrunched up in his had as he angrily spat words in my face. It didn't last long since the next thing I saw was Topper on the ground and Rafe punching him in the jaw. 

𝐀/𝐍 - Part 2 to the night soon! Ya'll I can't thank you enough for all this support you've shown me. It's been a crazy time recently and I'm thankful for your patience :) more to come!!