𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 • jennie kim

author's note.

hello guys,

so, i had originally started this book during the peak of jennie’s hate train. i had written a solid 10 chapters, but as it became progressively harder to write, i stopped. and i gave up on the book for a while.

i continued it again last year end. it was a book i had genuinely wanted to publish, and for a reason. even if it's years after the scandal which resulted in a massive personal hate bandwagon for jennie. i wanted people to consider other possible sides to the story.

i do not intend to make excuses for her actions, but merely provide an alternative perspective. after all, we never know what's going on inside. was she having severe depression? an extreme form of anxiety? panic attacks?

were we not a little too harsh?

it's just a reminder that one seemingly trivial comment like telling someone to die in a fit of anger can hurt another so, so much.

we shouldn't be so quick to judge.

i'm sure there were reasons behind what she did. she wouldn't make an army of haters for the fun of it. criticism is good, but the amount of hate she got was abysmal.

when i thought about how terrifying it must be, i felt so goddamn bad. that's what made me write this book. i can never be able to empathise in the slightest, and may never be able to convey the genuine unease, terror and anxiety jennie might have felt or anyone in such a situation might have helped, but i hope i did a relatively decent job.

depression is scary. anxiety is scary. they are illnesses that can severely affect one's mental health. i know loved ones with such conditions. it's not always written in black and white. they're hidden. please think twice before judging others ;; this applies to me a lot as well.

and if any of you are going through a hard time, know that people are there for you. there are suicide hotlines in your country that are available. people are there to listen. your friends, your family, or even a stranger on the internet. people care for you.

no matter what's going on, it's not the end of the world. trust me. things get better.

sending love always,

please take care.

elaine ♥️