jennie knew if she wanted to preserve her mental health, she should stop reading the comments.
but she couldn't.
she wanted to know what people really though of her, even if its bad.
even if it criticised everything she did.
"why is she acting so fake for the cameras?"
"does she think she's really that cute?"
"lol she thinks she's so funny."
she read all the comments silently, absorbing everything like a sponge. she didnt cry, she didn't feel sad. those feelings would come later.
the question is what would trigger them?
she also read the comments of fans stepping up for her, but didn't feel anything again. thoughts of why they bothered crossed her mind: haters just keep hating, don't they?
but what if they're right?
she knew she wasn't the performer that she used to be. but why? had she lost her interest? or is it because she hated how perfect and practiced they had to look all the time?
she wanted to be herself, but how could she, will all the strict standards?
nothing was really new at this point. life was just a cycle of mundaneness to her. do something, get hated on, do it anyway and the cycle repeats.
she was losing the thrill of performing.
it's really hard to enjoy it, you know, when all the hate comments are at the back of your mind, nagging like a bitch.
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𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 • jennie kim
Fanfictionjennie kim. one of the most hated idols. this is her story. + please keep in mind, this is a work of fiction. #6 in pills : out of 17.1k stories
