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I Fell

In every way, I did. But I'm about to get to the literal part of it.

I was quite used to his on and off, being friendly today and cold tomorrow, but somehow my good heart didn't take much offense and I still tried to be as natural and genuine as possible. It was a day to an exam I hadn't really prepared for due to some school circumstances, and I needed a little direction with the course. The first person that came to mind was him, and I didn't think it too deep about the tension he tried to create between us, I was as natural as I should be and my exams had to come first before any form of drama. I hit him up and surprisingly, he picked up that evening. After explaining situations to him, he instructed that I tagged along with Moses since he'd be taking him as well. It was perfect for me. I called Moses and we met up and headed for class.

On reaching class, he had his bag packed as though he were leaving and I had to take a pause. I watched as he came out of his seat and made his way to the back. When he saw me, he laughed nervously and made some sarcastic compliment about my hair, but I was pretty much used to getting roasted by him so I just stood staring, more concerned about what his next action would be. I had a weird feeling. He continued laughing nervously and passed by me as though we hadn't discussed any appointment.

'Your teacher doesn't know anything.' He had said as he walked past.

Was this some sort of joke? I looked towards Moses to see his reaction and he had settled down on a seat completely calm, maybe because they were friends, he had so much patience with him. I was already getting upset but I didn't want to, I had to remind myself he didn't owe me anything, not even tutorials, and if anyone could understand the course, I could too. So I settled two seats away from Moses and began looking through my pdf, hoping to understand whatever I saw.

He slid into the pew behind us and sat directly behind Moses, and after a while, he leaned forward and looked into the textbook Moses had while they whispered stuff to each other. I had to pretend I didn't know I had stylishly been cut out of the class and just focused on my own thing. A while after, he completely climbed over and sat beside Moses, teaching him without hiding this time. I wanted to be quiet but I felt I had to ask.

'I thought you said you didn't know anything? What then are you teaching him that I'm not supposed to know?'

The excuse was too silly to even remember but I didn't press on any further, I always had my back up plan.

The night held not just studies but sleep and weariness in it, and we all struggled through, it was almost normal for students. Although I didn't stress as much, once I got tired, I would take to writing which usually eased me, and then I'd go back to studying again. Eventually my anger faded away as I figured out my situation better and I didn't mind whatever they did anymore. Thanks to him for making me realize my strength.

In the early hours of the morning when I was officially done with studying, I thought to just move closer to them by a seat and see what they were up to. When I adjusted, I was warned about the seat but I felt comfortable so I completely waved it off. He sat directly in the middle while Moses sat beside him on the other side. I wasn't necessarily paying attention, I was just tired of sitting alone so I relaxed and watched them as they carried on. I wouldn't know of any reason why, but he got up and climbed over back to where he sat behind us the previous night as he kept throwing explanations over the pew to Moses. I probably itched his body but whatever they did, I didn't mind.

Everything was peaceful until there was a really loud wooden crack and I felt myself dropping, I was working with gravity. I attempted to catch myself but somehow, I had no control and trying too hard made it worse, as I kept causing more loud crack sounds while falling. It felt like I was falling for hours, long enough to make everyone in the class notice I was falling. Before I reached the floor, the whole auditorium was already in a roar of laughter and my senses shut down. I was a really conscious person, and well known too, those attributes didn't match for a situation as that. I was so embarrassed and didn't know how to get up. I had to take a moment to talk myself up from the floor and I tried to hold my face as neutral as possible to avoid showing any form of embarrassment or being upset.

'Sorry.' Someone echoed sarcastically from the edge of the auditorium which caused a second uproar of laughter. There was nothing I could do, people fall and people get laughed at. The thought was so funny I didn't know when I too, broke out laughing while Moses tried his best to make me as comfortable as possible.

Then I felt a tap from behind. Shit. He had watched me fall. Embarrassment flushed over my face again as I looked back, I couldn't even hear a single word from whatever he said to comfort me.

Life couldn't be any crueler, could it? Guess I didn't just fall for him after all, I had fallen before him too. How perfect.