Sisters of Inglewood (completed)

Chapter 13

Seiko

I didn't want to talk. I didn't want to eat. I shut everybody out, this was literally taking control over me. The once happy, cool, calm and collective vibrant young woman was now gone. I missed her.

I sat in my bed with the blinds shut, my dark curtains were closed and my door was shut and locked. Every so often my sisters would come knocking on the door, but I would tell them the same old thing. "I'm fine, just leave me alone."

They would leave and I would cry. I know I pushed them away but I wanted them to fight harder for me. I wanted for them to demand for me to open the door, to make me talk to them about what was going on but they didn't, they would just leave. Ronnie did leave me letters though saying how much her and Rochelle loved me and that when I was ready to talk they would listen.

I was so far gone I stopped going to work. I was fired within the next week and to be honest I didn't even care, I didn't want to see Trevor's ugly face! He was disgusting and I hated him. I didn't want to be around men period.

I would get sick a lot and throw up. I head headaches all the time and wanted to sleep non-stop. My cycle was supposed to come down two weeks ago and it hadn't. I went out and got 2 pregnancy tests. I wore all black, and had a hood on. I didn't want people seeing me out in public and I didn't want to see people. I purchased the two tests and went back home.

Once inside I rushed to the bathroom and took it. It was literally taking forever, and I started to panic. After waiting 5 minutes it came up, I picked up the first one and it said yes. I threw it to the side. I picked up the second one closing my eyes, once it was up to my face I opened my eyes... Yes. I shook it repeatedly and each time I looked it said yes. I threw it against the wall and fell to the ground crying. I placed my head in my hands and just started sobbing. This was the most I've cried ever, I wasn't an emotional person. I even held my composure at my parents funeral, everyone called me "cold hearted" because I didn't cry but the truth is I was broken up, I just couldn't let people see me emotional for some reason. I felt weak and my father always taught me to not be as such. He treated me like the son he never had, put me into sports like; basketball, softball, soccer, track and field, and I was even on an all boys football team in 2nd grade. When I got emotional he would always say, "Suck it up Seiko! You're a winner, and winners don't show emotion." He was one of the main reason I put a barrier up. I couldn't let anybody get close except for my family, because as far as I knew everyone was out to get me.

I heard the keys in the door so I grabbed the tests and rushed to my room.

"Seiko!" Ronnie yelled seeing me haul ass.

I could hear her running after me. I slammed the door locking it in her face.

"Seiko please!" I heard her yell.

I silently cried. I never wanted to shut my baby sister out but I couldn't help it.

"Seiko please just talk to me." I heard her slide down the door and she was quietly crying.

I didn't say anything. I just sat on side of the door too. Ronnie sniffled and started to talk again.

"Seiko you wouldn't believe what I've gotten myself into." She sarcastically laughed but still cried. "Remember when you saw Tone and I fight?" It seemed like she was waiting on an answer. I stayed quiet. "Yea well, you saw right. He was beating me... and I wasn't beating him back. I never do." It was quiet for a while.

"I don't know why he does it Ko, he just gets so mad sometimes... and his brother... his brother..." Her voice started shaking.

I placed my hands over my face and tried not to cry. I didn't want that to happen to her, she didn't deserve it. Here I was shutting them out and they needed me. But, I was lost myself.

"I've been wearing glasses around the house for the past week... You know Rochelle had something to say, questioning me and stuff." She laughed. "I told her Tone had gotten them for me and they were Dior and expensive so I wanted to get my money's worth... She of course didn't believe me but she dropped it. Seiko... his brother... he felt me up and tone didn't do anything. He tried to rape me and Tone didn't do nothing... I'm scared of him. I'm scared to leave."

Another long pause.

"Seiko I love you so much, and I'm telling you this because no matter what I told you about Tone, you never dropped it. You stayed on my ass." I heard her sniffle. "And I'm going to stay on your ass until you're ready to talk to me, I'm not dropping it. You're my family..." She was crying by then. "And family means.."

"No one gets left behind." I said finishing her sentence.

She slid her fingers under the door, I watched and then I placed my hand on top of hers. She let out a gasp and I could hear her crying.

We stayed like that for almost an hour and that's when I knew I had to tell my sisters what happened to me. They didn't deserve for me to just cut them off like that and I at least owed them that. I didn't know if I was going to keep this baby, but it was so hard living knowing I had someone growing on me who wasn't wanted. I didn't want to say it but I hated this baby. I knew it would look like Trevor, I knew it would have all his qualities and characteristics. I knew that if I kept it, I would be reminded of that night every single day for the rest of my life, and I don't think I could handle that.