LOVE? I CAN'T RELATE

Lonely Me

︵‿︵‿୨ ♡ Entry 10 ♡ ୧‿︵‿︵

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Alone, it is quite a depressing word, but it can also mean peace. It is another example of a small word, but it can't express this huge emotion or feeling. But this chapter won't be a dreadful one, since I know that we've all had different experiences leading up to that one word. This can lead to crushes-that sweet, heartfelt feeling of admiration. It keeps some of us going, but can it be forced? I call them the Faux Amant. A fake lover. In reality, you wouldn't want to be in a committed relationship with them because you rarely know them. But it's quite fun, huh? You get to blush, smile, and even express your admiration to your fellow girl friends and buddies! But when he removes his mask, you wish he hadn't.

In loneliness, love fills that hole. That's why when we search and search, just to have that hole deepen, and then it just gets kind of... sad. But in my case, that's just how I feel. Can you believe it, though? There are seven billion people, and they're just trying their best to find that one perfect person. Some continue to search, and some get lucky. We can't all get what we want; sometimes it just comes right to you, unexpectedly. But you're thinking, Why this topic, Dear Author? Well. Sometimes, in most cases, when a person notices that life has changed and progressed, it gets hard to acknowledge and talk about these things.

On some days, we get alone in our thoughts, and it's really hard to progress when every time you see a happy couple, you just want to sleep on the highway. Kidding, or am I? But you may have questions about the universe. You question when? When will he appear? When will I find that feeling again? What will it take? I'm here to assure you that people you might not expect will experience this too. Including me, unfortunately.

How can we make the waiting easier? Or even, how can it be less painful? I might not have the answer, but I do have advice. And no, it isn't a cliché; love can wait, but whatever it is that you feel will pass. Eventually, you may even forget this lonely feeling one way or another. If you're experiencing it, of course. You can always come back to this if you are feeling it. So keep simping for six-foot men and goth girls. We've all got a Faux Amant but are secretly waiting for a real Amant. Even the loneliest nights have their own kind of beauty. The quiet, the stillness-they can be a peaceful refuge away from the noise of the world. And even when we're feeling alone, there is always a part of us that knows we're not really alone at all. Because our own self-love is the deepest connection we'll ever have. God, was that corny? I apologize; I'm going to throw up now. I also just found out that it's been a year since I've been in a relationship. Thank God, actually. As much as I love, love. That crap stresses me out. Also, why is everyone I know in love right now? Ugh. Can't relate.

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