☆could you be loved~ jj maybank☆

☆four☆

the pogues arrived at the bonfire at the boneyard, kie and pope quickly got in a heated debate and jj and john b went off to flirt with some tourist girls, el wandered off and found sarah.

"hey" el smiled, hugging her friend "is your brother around?"

"wow good to see you too" sarah laughed "him and top should be back any minute, although i think it's gross that you're seeing rafe".

"don't say that i'm 'seeing' him" ellie shook her head "it's not like that".

"gross" sarah fake gagged "too much info".

the girls talked for a while but eventually rafe and topper showed up, sarah went off with topper and el approached rafe.

"hey" she smiled

"hey, thought your friends didn't want you hanging around me?" rafe teased.

"they're not the boss of me, though they think they are" el stepped closer to rafe "miss me?"

rafe nodded "definitely" he smiled before kissing her.

el hadn't noticed jj approaching, she also hadn't noticed how drunk he had gotten. he slung his arm around el "hey ellie, how we doing over here?" he asked.

"jj, not now" she warned "go find pope or something".

"nah i think i'll stay right here where i can keep an eye on this creep" jj glared at rafe.

"creep?" rafe scoffed "yeah ok man"

"you know she's 16 right?" jj asked "i'd say that makes you a creep"

"jj, please go" el begged "i'll come find you in a bit"

jj ignored el and continued to antagonize rafe, rafe quickly got annoyed with jj and swung on him. a full fist fight broke out between the two, john b pulled off jj and topper pulled off rafe.

topper said some snarky comment to john b, of course he ended up swinging on topper; another fight broke out, this time topper dragged john b to the water and began to drown him.

jj pulled a gun to topper's head causing everyone to panic, el ran over and managed to get jj to hand her the gun; she slid it in the front of her shorts and covered it with her tshirt.

"john b we gotta go" el panicked, pulling john b out of the water "shit the cops!"

the group were running through the crowd of panicked teenagers trying to get back to the twinkie when sarah stopped el "seriously el, this could have been avoided if you didn't bring them" sarah reprimanded.

el scoffed "go fuck yourself sarah" she then slid into the driver side of the twinkie, john b normally would have argued this but he just got drowned so he wasn't in any condition to argue.

"you're so fucked jj" el blurted as she took a drag of her cigarette "seriously what's wrong with you".

"maybe if you didn't like to fuck losers this wouldn't have happened ellie" he spat.

"well maybe if you minded your own business-" el began.

"okay guys! this isn't healthy" pope tried to defuse the situation.

el dropped pope and kie back at their houses "hey can i crash at the chateau? my moms home and-" el said shyly.

"yeah, of course" john b nodded "always... you don't have to explain yourself" he assured her.

ellie mouthed 'thank you' to john b and continued driving back to the chateau. for a little context, el's father was abusive towards her and her mother; one night when el was 12 her father was being more violent than usual so she called the police on her father.

she didn't know that this would get her father locked up but it did, her mother still loved her dad although he was a dick. when he got sent away; her mother began to drink. she'd tell ellie that it was her fault that her father got sent away and that she didn't love her, el hated it at home. el has spent the past few years crashing on different friend's couches unless she absolutely couldn't; then she'd go back home.

john b, jj, and el walked into the chateau. they were all obviously tired and pissed. "i'm going to bed... don't kill each other" john b nodded before walking into his room.

el didn't say a word to jj, she just went into the bathroom to wash her face and brush her teeth; then she went into john b's fathers room. john b let her crash there because it beat sleeping on the couch and his father wasn't using it.

el went to bed, she wasn't asleep for long. she had a nightmare about her father coming back from prison and murdering her. ellie's throat was dry so she went to the kitchen to get water, she expected jj to be asleep but he was just sitting up on the couch.

"what are you doing up?" he asked "sneaking off to kiss your kook boyfriend?"

"i had a nightmare about my dad... and rafe isn't my boyfriend" she said in a monotone voice.

jj stood up and joined el in the kitchen "you know ellie, i'm just looking out for john b... and for you" he explained.

"really? because john b doesn't seem like he gives a fuck who i sleep with" el scoffed "he was with a girl all night but the second i talk to a guy it's not ok?"

"it's just-" jj began.

"it's just what jay?" ellie shook her head "you've done this with every guy i've talked to since we were 8, when are you gonna give it a rest?"

"i was-" he began "i was jealous alright?"

"what?" el asked.

"you know how you flirt with me all the time and i act like it's weird and it doesn't phase me... yeah well it phases me" he admitted "look i don't want to hurt john b but i think about you all the time".

el pulled jj in by the pocket of his shorts "john b doesn't have to know" she smiled.

jj looked at her solemnly, they both knew that if they did this, they couldn't take it back. this could change a lot. jj didn't care; he placed his hands on either side of el's waist and pulled her in so their torsos were touching, he looked down and kissed her with aggression.

he then lifted ellie up so her legs were wrapped around his waste, and he carried her to the bedroom she stayed in.