Baker Girl <Louis Tomlinson>

THIRTEEN

Edited.

Last night Louis took me home but he was going too be busy the next few days and I wasn't going to be moving from my bed. I was in such an awful mood and I just felt like if i was going too move i'd just break down and cry. I sometimes had days like this when I felt like the world was getting to heart on my shoulders. I loved Louis and he loved me, he said i was perfect but i didn't feel perfect and what he doesn't know won't hurt him right?

I was going on my laptop and I really had the urge too get another tattoo. I have two already; one on my lower back which nobody knows about, even Louis. It's a butterfly with my mums name curved around it, then the one on my leg but I wanted one on my wrist, one too show that i'm strong. So when i had decided on the tattoo I finally pulled myself out of bed, pulling my sweats on, climbing in my car and drove to the tattoo parlour.

I saw a few paps but honestly, i just didn't give a fuck anymore andI felt like crap, i most probably looked like it too but i wanted this tattoo. I climbed out of the car and made my into the tattoo shop.

"What can we do for you ma'am?" He said in his american lingo.

"Well i'd like an infinity sign on my wrist with some flowers. Does that okay?" He nodded and drew a few sketches.

I sat in the seat, the tattooist walked over too me and handed me the sketches. I thought for a long while before finally choosing the right one but the one I had chosen was beautiful. It was an inifinty sign which had flowers scattered around it.

I walked over and sat in the chair, if it was one thing i could handle. It was pain, I used to self harm for heavens sake. I shut my eyes and relaxed.

"We've done it ma'am." my eyes fluttered open and i looked down at my wrist with a small smile.

"Thankyou so much!" I smiled at the gentlemen before walking out the front and payibg, paying a little extra to tip the gent.

"Thank you!" I said once again as I walked away from the papparazzi and too my car, ignoring the questions and flashes from there camera.

Lena

Liliane had told Jack who told me that she wasn't coming in and that she felt 'under the weather.' Of course i believed non of that, neither did Jack. I had just met this girl but i felt like i'd known her my whole life. Jack had told me a bit about her, she was a year older than me and we were going to be friends, i new we were. I was about too pull my phone out and text her when the door beeped and I looked up too see Niall and Zayn standing there.

"Hi, What can i get you?" I kindly offered, giving them a small smile.

"To coffee's and 2 red velvets cakes please!" Niall smiled and I new he had a love for food, so it was cute.

I got there order ready, handing it to them and they went to sit down. I finally pulled my phone out and text Liliane.

Lena: Whats wrong? You were fine yesturday. Lena. xxx

Liliane: Hey sweetie. I'm just feeling a bit low. I'll be in on friday! xxx

Lena: Alright. Niall and Zayn are here. Do you want me to say Hi?xxx

Liliane: Nooo, they don't know i'm ill. If they ask, i'm having a lazy day.. :) xxx

Lena: Okay. Will do. Cheer up hun. Do you want anything?Xxx

Liliane: Thanks and nah, i'm okay! byee!xxx

I never replied as I had to carry on working.

"Wheres Liliane?" Nialls thick irish accent rang through my ears and i spun around to face him.

"Having a lazy day, why?" I said, shrugging my shoulders.

"Oh. I was meant to be giving her guitar lessons today but nevermind!"

He walked off, leaving me too serve the big queue of customers i'd acquired. His eyes were beautiful, Oh god. I had feelings growing for Niall and i barely new him. Shitty shit shit.

Niall

"Hey, Zayn. I gotta run some errands. I'll catch you later!" I said, tapping him on the shoulder and walking out of the cafe. I new Liliane wasn't just having a lazy day. I waved to Lena, who waved back. She was breathtaking. Her eyes and her smile, oh my god. I smiled to myself and made my way too Liliane's apartment.

I finally arrived at her apartment, her car was in the front and I walked up to the door. I knocked twice and could hear Molly barking.

"Niall?" she said as she pulled me in for a hug.

"Hey Lil. You okay?" She nodded and we walked in to the living room. "Whats with your arm. what did you do? oh shit, women. does Louis know?"

"I got another Tattoo, Ni. I'm fine!" She unravelled the bandage and it really was amazing but i could never get a tattoo. No balls, i don't like pain.

"Sweet!" I smiled as she wrapped it back up. "Everything okay Lil?"

She looked away from me as her face fell and a solemn look fell over her features.

"You can tell me anything Lil." I said offering her a shoulder to cry on as i wrapped my arms around her shoulders.

"I'm okay Ni. What are you doing here?" She said, finally looking up, giving me a small smile

"You forgot about our guitar lesson." She brought her hand up and gasped.

"SHIT! I'm sorry." She began to sob and i new she wasn't okay.

"You don't need to cry Lil." I tightened my grip and she sobbed into my chest, i didn't like seeing people cry especially people i cared about.

"It's not that." She mumbled, into my chest. Me and Liliane were like brother and sister. Best friends and i new we could tell everything to eachother.

"What is it?" I said, trying to calm her down, rubbing my hand up and down her arms.

"I just know that Louis will get fed up of me. I'm not strong enough too show my affectinate side yet because of what happened!" She sobbed a little harder and i managed to tighten my arms around her.

"He'll understand Lil! It'll be okay. He's a good lad and he loves you so much." I kissed the top of her head and she finally calmed down enough to control her breathing.

"I have to go as I have rehearsals, please don't fret to much. He'll understand!" I kissed her on the cheek and made my way out of her apartment.

Liliane

Maybe Niall was right, maybe Louis would understand. I hope so but I am so scared. I'm petrified and the thought sends shivers down my spine. Louis gives me that tingly feeling inside and I don't even know what that feeling is, but i just i couldn't give myself to him, not yet.

Maybe I'd never be able to do it at all.