SPELIVIA 2 ?

united in grief

Pain.

Pain is all Spencer felt throughout the past few weeks after Billy's sudden death. He tried everything in his power to hold all of his emotions but in a moment of silence, he broke. He broke in front of the person he tried so hard to stay strong for.

After Olivia got the call from Kia that Spencer was on his breaking point, she rushed over to the beach house. She saw the door slightly open, walking in to see a whole other version of Spencer. Glass were all over the floor and furniture was all over the place. He was full on sobbing and grunting in anger as he was finally breaking.

When he hears her voice calling for him, he stops. He glances at her... and that's when everything comes out.

"I'm never going to see him again. He's never going to be my coach again." Spencer tearfully saids while repeatedly knocking objects down on the floor. Liv emotionally sees this in worry.

"All I can ever think about is that damn voicemail." Liv slowly approaches as he reveals more of his honest and painful feelings. "Liv, I... he called me the day he died, wanting to make amends and I... declined the call. I pressed decline because I was stupid. I was dumb enough to not forgive him..." Tears fall down both of their faces as they hear and feel his truth.

"I tried to hide my feelings. Tried to not let people notice. I thought it wasn't the right time for everyone to worry about me when you, Jordan and Laura were hurting. It shouldn't be on me.

"Right now it is, Spencer. And that's ok. We're all worried about you. I'm worried about you." Olivia responds as calmly as she can.

"You shouldn't be worried about the guy who broke your heart."

Olivia froze for a second. "Hell, I broke everyone's hearts."

"Spencer..." She tries to interject.

"I hurt everybody. And now, they don't think of me the same. I'm not Spencer James. I'm somebody else."

"Spencer."

"I'm somebody who feels empty. Pain. Loss. Regret."

"Spencer..."

"And you know the thing I regret the most?" He looks into her eyes. She sees cold, dead red eyes. He's truly broken.

"Billy died, knowing I never got to say I was sorry!" He weeps down, dropping down to the floor with Olivia hugging and holding him for dear life, while in tears. She hated seeing Spencer this way.

"I'm so sorry Coach! I'm so sorry... god..." He sobs out. Olivia holds him, letting all of his emotions run out of him. She knew he needed to get something out of his chest so she holds him for a long period of time. He tearfully cries into her arms.

"It hurts Liv. It hurts so much! I miss him!"

"I miss him too."

"I want to change it back. I want to go back in time to answer his call!"

"I wanna... I wanna say I'm sorry..."

"He knows you are. He knows." She saids, rubbing his back.

"I need help Liv. I really do."

"I know. And I will be here, just like how you were there for me when I needed it." Spencer looks at her, slowly showing a calm face.

"Olivia, about us..."

"Hey, let's not talk about that right now. I suggest we clean up and take this healing process one step at a time. And just like you said, when the time comes, we will have our honest conversation, ok?" He nods. She gives a genuine smile, wiping away his tears and giving him a kiss on the cheek.

"Come on. Let's go heal." She helps him off the ground as they clean the house, with her informing family & friends that he was ok and that he was willing to get the help he needs.

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I thought it would've been interesting to put a prediction/version of how I think Spencer will be dealing with his grief of Billy.

By the way, I intended for this chapter to be short. I would rather have the episode have it full out in detail rather than me do it. Plus, I think any other writers are better at writing longer versions of this so yeah.