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C H A P T E R 45

It was 10am when I dropped the twins at daycare. I drove to my apartment to wear the necklace and change cars. My car is always parked at the apartment when I'm with the kids. I use the BMW X7 no one knows I own and leave my regular car at the apartment, along with the necklace that has the tracker chip.

The drive from the day care, to the apartment, to home was long so when I got to our mansion the clock had already hit 12. Plus I might have added Starbucks to one of my destinations.

I really needed a coffee to think about the decision I took this morning. I've decided to tell Kenny about the twins. I've been feeling guilty about keeping this from him ever since I saw him two days ago. Yes, I did feel a little guilt for not telling him all these years. But, keyword : a little. Now that I've seen him, it's a lot of guilt. He deserves to know he has a son and a daughter. My babies also deserve to know their father. It's the right thing to do, I've come to this decision after thinking it through the whole weekend.

It might also have to do with what Kiara said this morning, I think that was the ultimate decision sealer. It is what made my decision final.

She was telling Yvonne all about her day at the amusement park during breakfast. She happily narrated everything we did yesterday, including what happened at McDonald's. How Kai chased the poor man away, her words not mine. But it's not any of that, that got to me. It was what she said after.

"Yada you should come with us next time." She said and her eyes lightened up like she just had a good idea. "Mom, when dad comes back we'll go with him too right ?"

At that moment I didn't know how to feel, sad, guilty, angry at myself or relieved that Kenny's here. But with all those emotions, hurt was the most dominant. My kids shouldn't live like this because of the mistakes I did. Having hope that their father will show up one day, I feel like such as a bad person. Yes, I am a bad person. But when it comes to my babies, I don't play like that. I don't do that shit.

I've always portrayed a good image of Kenny to the kids. When they would ask about their father, I'd always tell them how their dad was out there saving the world and fighting bad people. In my defence, I thought that's what he was doing.

I've convinced them as much as I can that their dad loves them, he's just traveling a lot with his work and saving the world. Yes, now that they're four, they believe that. And I knew they'd grow up and finally realise that there's no saving the world or fighting bad guys that's happening and I lied to them. But I told myself I'd cross the bridge when I get there. Right now, I didn't want my kids hating their dad thinking he left them.

Infact, if there was anyone that deserved to be blamed for their dad not being present, it's me. I'm the one that lied and betrayed his trust five years ago. I'm the reason we're not together anymore, the one to blame for our separation.

In conclusion, I'll be honest just once in my life. That's why I'll ask my dad for Kenny's details. He asked to see me in his office right now, so I'll take this as my only opportunity to do this. I'll call Kenny and ask him to talk in person, then I'll tell him about Kai and Kiara.

"You asked to see me ?" I said as I entered my dad's office, Tina and I exchanged greetings before she got out and closed the door.

"Yes, but your dad called you, not your boss." He replied as he stood from his chair.

"Great. So what's up old man ?" I raised my eyebrow and he chuckled.

"I can still shoot you." He said and I stick my tongue at him. Oh my gosh Kiara's habits are rubbing off on me. "How about we go get lunch ? We'll talk there."