Lockwood / Y/N

57.real or not real.

Lockwoods POV
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4 months.
4 months without her.
We searched for her.
Quill called the house.
We got told if we searched for her anymore then they would hurt her.
He didn't say he would but whoever is helping him would.

I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't bring myself to eat.
Lucy made me sometimes.
Said I had to stay strong for her when she would come back.
She was never coming back.
How could she.
Quill had locked her away again.

I read the books she liked.
I even went shopping with Lucy to buy some things for the baby.
My child that I would never get to see.
Our child.

I worried about her.
Worried she was alone.
Worried if she was eating.
Worried if she was sleeping.
Worried.
Constant worry.

I just wanted to hold her again.
See her again.
Smell her smell again.
She always smelt of flowers.

I thought I saw her sometimes in the house.
Washing up.
Sitting in the library reading.
Lucy and Georgie had to remind me she wasn't here.

Pulling myself out of bed when I heard the front door.
Someone banging it.
" I'll get it !"
I heard Lucy shout.
Standing on the landing waiting to hear who was at the door.
I hear Lucy saying something else.
The front door slamming.
Walking over to the stairs and looking to the front door.
My mind playing tricks on me again.
" my minds playing tricks on me again Luce.
Looks like Y/N at the front door."
Walking down the stairs slightly.
My mind playing more tricks she's saying something this time.

I walk down the stairs more.
She's still there.
Trying to ignore my mind , I walk into the kitchen.
Georgie sat at the kitchen table.
Taking my usual spot.
" fucking hell Y/N ?"
Georgie says as Lucy walks in the kitchen.
My mind telling me she's being Lucy.
" I think I should go .
Lockwood clearly doesn't want me here "
It's her.
It's really her.
" Y/N? Is it really you "
I say while slowly getting up from the table.
Walking up to her.

Trying to make my arms move.
I put a hand on her now rather large bump.
Feeling her underneath my hand.
It's really her.
She looks up to me with a smile on her face.
" she might kick in a minute if you hold your hand there long enough "
She says.
" how are you here ?
I mean I've missed you.
Why did they let you come here ?
Wait SHE ?"
I say.
Shocked that she's actually here.

She wraps her arms around my neck.
" we will talk about that later .
For now we need to leave .
We need to go to the cabin my father has.
It's not safe here"
She says now dropping her arms.
" what do you mean Y/N ?"
Lucy asks.
Lucy now sat by Georgie.
" they didn't let me leave .
I ran .
I literally ran"

She still smells like flowers.
Still beautiful as always.
Maybe she even now has a glow to her.
God how I've missed her.