Lockwood / Y/N

44. Life and Death.

Lockwoods POV:
It's been weeks since Y/N got shot .
Quill and DEPRAC took her to the hospital .
I haven't heard from her .
I don't even know if she's still alive .
I spend most days Locked in our room .
I just want to see her .
I need her .
I can't live without her .
Lucy and Georgie check in on me sometimes .
Making sure I'm not dead .

I find myself building up the courage to go to the kitchen today .
Finding Lucy , Georgie and Quill .
Why's he here .

" Lockwood .. I was just about to come and talk to you"
Quill says .
Looking to him .. I can see how puffy hes eyes are like he's been crying .
" where's Y/N ?"
Is all I can say .
I just need to know where she is .
So I can see her .
" Anthony before I tell you , you need to understand ..."
" TELL ME WHERE SHE IS "
I scream at him slamming my hands down onto the kitchen table .

" she's at our home .
Lockwood she doesn't remember anything .
After she got shot ... she hit her head when she hit the floor .
She only remembers being with Bobby .
She's forgot the last couple of moths "
I turn away from him .
I know he's lying .
But she's alive .
I need to go to her .
Even if he's telling the truth I'll make her remember me .
She has to remember me .
What we had .

" I need to see her"
I say while taking my usually seat at the head of the table .
" you can see her but Lockwood .. she thinks that you don't want her . "
Quill says looking down at the table .
" the first week or so in the hospital she screamed most days asking for you but it was in her sleep .
She started sleeping walking at one point . "

A glimmer of hope .
" if she was asking for me ... why didn't you come and get me "
I feel the range building up inside .
" because when she would wake up .. she would ask for Bobby "
Seeing almost regret on Quills face .
Did he feel sorry for me ?
" I want to see her now "
With that we all get up from the table and get ready to see her .

" Y/N someone's here to see you "
Quill says .
I stay out the way .
Lucy and Georgie go in first .
" Lucy ! Georgie ! "
Her voice .
I feel at ease hearing her .
" what are you doing here ?"
" we thought we would come and see you Y/N we've missed you ... you don't remember do you ?"
Fuck it .
I need to see her .
I walk slowly into the room .
" what the fuck are you doing here "
She looks beautiful.
She doesn't looks tired anymore .
She looks at peace .
" I ..I .. I wanted to see you .
Make sure you are okay and happy without me "
Is all I could get out .
" you need to leave Anthony .
You said you didn't want me .
I'm trying to leave you alone . "
Fuck .
It's not true I scream inside my own head .
She looks confused all of sudden .

" Quill my head hurts .
I think I need to rest "
She says turning away .
She looks like she's in pain .
" you all need to leave it's to much to soon "
Quill says while pushing us out the room .

While walking out the front door I can hear her screaming in pain .
" Lockwood it will be okay "
Lucy says .
I just carry on walking away .

She's left me .
She doesn't remember me .
I can't stand to be here without her .
I know I can't live knowing she hates me .

" we need to get back mate it's almost curfew "
Georgie says .
The taxi pulls up in front of us .
Getting home and making my way upstairs .
Laying down on what was our bed one last time .

I hear a knock at the door .
Lucy .
" Lockwood you need to know something .
Y/N told me ... she told me she wanted to live her life with you she wanted to get married and have kids and grow old together ."
I look away from her .
Hearing that's what Y/N wanted hurt .
It hurt so much that I wouldn't be able to give her that now .
" leave please "
Is all I could let come out .
" okay "
She leaves the room .

I know I wanted to leave even more now .
I grab my coat and make my way down to the front door .
Hearing the rain .
I open the front door ready to leave .
Just go anywhere .
My minds playing tricks .
Y/N .
She's stood there looking at me .

" locky ?"