Bonded for life

Chapter 20 : Broken.

Camilla

I was hesitating going to college. Carlos is definitely gonna question me. i'm nervous, the worst he'll do is shout at me. One thing i've learnt about him is that he doesn't waste his time in relationships that aren't worth it. Which is why i'm nervous he'll break up with me. But i don't think he will, he knows how much i like him. I wouldn't waste his time even though i was being a bitchy girlfriend yesterday.
i tried to get it off my mind, I was wearing a cute outfit. Trying to keep my mood up.

"Don't worry Cam, he won't do anything too bad. He likes you, why would he be mean?"

She has a point. But i've seen Carlos angry. It's scary as shit.

"I just wanna keep it off my mind. Let's go"
I sighed taking my bag

The drive was nerve wrecking. I was struggling to focus on the road. I think i almost killed me and Gabs about 5 times? Maybe more.

"Omg i lived"
Gabi said waving her arms in the air.
Dramatic much.

"Whatever let's go." i said rolling my eyes.

I was trying to keep eye contact to the floor. So hopefully i wouldn't see Carlos. So far i didn't. Which i was relieved about. Maybe he was too upset to come. I know that sounds bad, but i'm horrible with confrontation. I'm only good with it with people i hate (Alexa)

it was 12pm, meaning one hour left. I didn't think about it much which is good. At least i focused in my lessons. Me and Gabs were at campus sitting at a bench. I really wish i kept my eyes on the bench, because then i saw a trio of guys walking our way. Ohhh shit..

"Camilla, we need to talk now."
Carlos said, his eyes were swollen. Was he not sleeping because of me? He still looked gorgeous sadly.
I looked at Gabi giving her a "help me" look. She gave me an apologetic look. I guess she couldn't do much. I had no choice but to go with him. He was about to hold my hand but i shoved my hand away. I was too nervous right now. I'm so fucking stupid i made him even more mad i bet.
We went to a corner that was quite private which was good. Carlos leaned on the wall.

"Are you gonna explain?" he said looking tired as hell.
Geez i fucked him up.

"Explain what.?" i said looking down

He stopped leaning on the wall, then lifted my chin up to look him in the eyes.

"Don't fuck with me Camilla." he said, his eyes glossy.

"Ok, I need to practice on the competition. You know i need to, yet you're not giving me space ." i said pushing his hand away. I raised my voice a bit. Not sure why, it's not like he's intimidated by me.

"Just because you want space don't mean you ghost your boyfriend.".

"You don't know what it feels like I'm pressured so fucking much." i shouted,

"You think i don't? You know i'm a hockey player right?"

"That's not the point. Figure skating is different"

"Cut the bullshit, don't try and guilt trip me" he said running his hand through his hair.

"Why are you acting like this?" i asked.

"Maybe because you don't fucking talk to me, acknowledge me, spend time with me."

"What do you want?" i said crossing my arms

"What do you think i want?!" he asked pinning me against the wall.

"I miss you, i miss your happiness, i miss your touch, i miss your lips, i miss every part of you." he said leaning closer.

"Well you know i'm busy with the competition, you know i'm stressed, you know i'm fucking pressured." i said pushing him away

He scoffed, shaking his head

"Your not even trying in our relationship"

"You think i'm not?"

"I know you're not, you ghosted me yesterday."

"Why are you so mad? So what it's just once."

"It doesn't matter if it was just once, you could've communicated with me."

Fuck my life.

"I've had enough, I wanna break up." he said.

What the fuck. I was too shocked to speak. Just standing there looking stupid.

"What?" i said shakily

"Camilla, i like you. I really do. But i'm not convinced you like me. I don't wanna be in pain"

"Bye C." he said his voice breaking, then he kissed my hand then left. Making me sting with tears, my vision went blurry . Tears filled up my eyes until they were running down my cold cheek. I kept replaying him kissing my hand. The warmth of his lips on my skin. Making me swarm with butterflies.

Hi! I know Camilla is looking like a real bitch right now, she'll get better. Hope you're enjoying the story so far!
S x