𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

40 | crush

*Song rec - Glue Song
by beabadoobee*

I chewed on the inside of my cheek, the small breeze blowing between us and the silence grew as we sat on the porch steps.

He felt it too because he finally decided to speak up "I'm sorry" He said, even though he had already apologized "About everything, including the other night" I look at him and he was already looking at me "You were hurt with me and we shouldn't have done anything but I... I wanted you to forgive me"

I sigh and look away. "I'm sorry I put that pressure on you"

"That's not what I mean"

I clear my throat "Chan told me something" I said but still didn't look at him "About the summer of freshman year"

I heard his groan and I looked toward him now and he had his eyes closed in embarrassment and I tried not to laugh. "Please let the earth swallow me up" He mumbled

"Your dramatic," I said and he opens his eyes and found me looking at him.

"What did he say specifically?"

"Oh you know, all about your drunk talks about having a crush on a certain hot boy"

Minho groans again and I finally laugh at his embarrassment "I'm gonna go tell Felix all about his wet dreams now"

My eyes widen "Oh my—"

Minho chuckles "They are really freak—"

I slap my hand over his mouth "Stop!" I said loudly and he chuckles. "I'll have nightmares"

He grabs my hands and removes them from his mouth, "What else did he say about me? So I know how much to spill"

I shrug "Lots of things" and look away "Mostly about how much you liked me and maybe threw in a few things to try and convince me to forgive you"

"Did it work?"

I look at him and smirk "Wouldn't you like to know?"

"I just want to know if he is a good wingman"

I roll my eyes "Well now that you say that, no"

"Fine, of course, I want to know. I mean since it's out in the open. I will admit it, I did... or still do like you"

"Have a crush on me" I corrected him and he rolled his eyes.

"Yes, have a crush on you" I smile contently as he gave in. "But I will also say that I did say all that shit to Caroline when I got really drunk one night and I remember seeing you with Dylan at the beach being all lovey-dovey"

I grimace "Oh doubt it"

He raises his brows "Were you not making out with him on the beach a few days before that night you kissed me?"

I swallow harshly "Oh that night?" I chuckle nervously.

"Yes, that night"

I look away "Didn't see you there" I scratch my neck nervously.

"Because you had your tongue down his throat"

I look at him, squinting and looking over his face "I smell jealousy" I smirk "And you getting sidetracked from the main topic of this discussion"

"Right, I saw you two kissing and it's just—I don't know, set me off?"

I frown "And you got drunk?"

He sighs "Yeah, it was a bad habit"

I watch him look away and to the street, "I'm sorry" I said lowly, making his gaze find mine again "I didn't realize what I was doing hurt you—I didn't know how you felt"

"That's my fault, not yours" He smiles softly "I was just your brother asshole friend"

"True"

He pushes my shoulder playfully and we both laugh. We sat there for a few more minutes, talking about all the times we bickered about the small things and he would explain to me why he said what he did, though in those moments they hurt but now as I saw him explain to me I realized he just tried to protect himself.

He liked someone that was taken and he hated the fact it wasn't him that I was dating and he also hated how he didn't know how to just tell me, mostly because he thought he already screwed up from all the shitty things he said to me.

That night I forgave him. I forgave him for everything.

*Song rec - Glue Song
by beabadoobee*

To think I started writing this book in the beginning of winter and finishing it at the end of winter.

I started this book to help with my seasonal depression lmao.