Scarlett's secret ~ (Finding A Home)

chapter 9

When my grandmother finally passed away of double the pneumonia my neighbor ended up contacting Social Services because she couldn't take me in in the social services ended up reaching back out to Mom and will you know I ended up getting placed back into her care. It honestly wasn't that bad I meant mom acted like her but no we're near as bad she gave me chores but they was nothing compared want my grandmother had me doing I honestly didn't mind it I actually found it to be a break. One thing I absolutely loved about being there was that I wanted to have a relationship with you. And I didn't have to do so much schooling. The only thing that I really did is kept my phone a secret because I didn't want it to be taken away I used it and started to fiddle around with it and since I already had an savings account that was attached to a bank account in my name that it seemed like my mother didn't know anything about I ended up starting to do these little contest things and winning money and having it sent to my bank account when I was around 7:00 I started browsing around and checking out these little things that people could do with small online businesses. I was quite smart and had good grades it just seemed like things came easy to me. My dad was really smart he ended up graduating early from high school and going on to become a Marine. It seemed like my mom wasn't dumb either because she ended up getting her GED at 16 and going on to college. I learned that from the CCTV footage of the conversation they had in the hospital. So at least both of my parents was really smart and that was something that I inherited from both of them.

It was honestly like a paradise to me I mean I didn't like the fact that she seemed to always judge me and holler at me and as I said before it always seemed to me that my mom was turning me against you and I really wanted to save him more than anything.

The whole reason I stopped talking to my mother when I was 8 it's because it seemed like every time I open my mouth I would only get hollered at nothing that I did seem to please her and she just started judging me without giving me a chance in my eyes she wasn't much different from my grandmother my grandmother was way worse.

So that is actually the reason why I stopped talking to her and a lot of it was just being spiteful in a way because I was still mad and upset and hurt that she didn't give me a chance and when I was finally there and older she just judged me straight out of the gate. As I heard my mom say to Dean it was just so much easier for her to send me to my room and it was to deal with me I know that she never wanted me from the beginning and that my father paid her money just to keep me alive my father loved me without even really getting to know me he wasn't around when my mother was pregnant with me and he wasn't there when I was born and he ended up not coming home to ever see touch or hold me and he ended up dying serving his country. I love him more than he will ever know even though I will never get to personally know him I hated the fact that my grandmother has some pictures of him and when he passed she was so mad at him she got rid of all of his pictures and I never got one. She even got rid of the flag that was given to her from his Pearl grave and I don't know whatever became of it.

As you probably know I stayed outside so much when I came to live with you it was like total freedom to me and I enjoyed every bit of it I know that sometimes it upset you and you got frustrated but one thing I can say you never yelled and screamed at me even though you would holler to tell me to get back in the house.

Yeah I remember that as I was telling Mom and everyone else Wednesday there was always this one tree that you would always climb up in I never understood why you did that but it seemed like you always went to that one tree you went all the way up to the forks as high as you could nine times out of 10 every time you was outside it seemed like you was upset tree I thought it was kind of weird and never really got it. I actually have a picture on my phone of you up in that tree my brother said to me.

Oh I know I saw it on your phone one day when you were looking at it and thought it was kind of cool so when you had your phone laying down one day I got the phone and sent it to my email and took it from my email and put it on my phone the reason I like that tree so much it's because it got me up really high and it was like I was being able to look down on the world besides the world looking down on me. It also gave me a comforting feeling being up there because it felt like I was closer to my father.

You know I really understood when we moved here to Washington that I was pushed to the back burner but I really did get it you had just found your mate and your father just discovered he had you his firstborn child and that is first true love is actually his second chance Main I heard him my mom over talking when he come over to mom's parents house before she sold it. You know I got to say for shifters you all really don't check if there's someone in the room I guess it was that being all wrapped up in each other kind of saying I really do get it.