Scarlett's secret ~ (Finding A Home)

chapter 10

You know I know that you both were hurt with me not coming to your weddings But in a way you never asked me to come I always assume that you didn't want me there you never really even introduce me to your mate Jennifer when you all were dating you all were wrapped up in each other too and she had all her friends and she even included mom and a lot of things during her girls get together but I was never included in that kind of hurt. I don't know what was ever said or what you really truly thought of me but I didn't know what you said to her so I just took it that you really didn't want me there. But to be honest even though I denied going I actually still went. You had an outdoor wedding and I stayed up in the tree lines but I still saw you getting married I was really happy for you more than you will ever know.

Just so you know Jessica sent me a thank you card for attending her wedding. She had a guest book that was laid out for all the guests to sign I guess she didn't realize when she sent it back who I really was because I ended up signing it Scarlett Carson. You know if her mother actually paid attention and did the same thing she would realize that I was actually at her wedding too I said as I turn my head and look at Dean. Mom never sent out thank you cards but if she did she would have saying that I had signed her guest book to. I know you all had an indoor wedding at a church and I stayed in the back next to the exit. It's not that I had a problem with you all being married or that the fact he was my stepfather. I honestly didn't know how to feel about that because I had a father and he never got the chance to get to know me and I felt bad in some ways because I didn't want you to step in and try to take his place because he never got the chance to have his place in my life.  I know that isn't the case and that is why I do speak to you it's not because I disrespect you.

So yeah .. that is pretty much my past, I said. As I turned around and look back at mark. There are still a few things that no one knows about me. I don't know if I'm ready to share them or not.

You're doing so good and I am proud of you Caleb said. you can tell us anything, it is best to get everything out in the open. Remember we are just here to listen we are not going to judge you on anything.

Yeah what he said marks stated. What else could they be? Like I didn't know you had an online business! How is that even possible? Don't you have to be like 18 to do that?

No you don't have to be 18 you only have to be 14 with a parent signature. And yeah I'm not perfect I have lied a few times in my life. Like when my grandmother asked did I use the money to get me some food and I said yes even though I didn't I kept it to get a phone.

Or when I filled out the application and information to start the online business I'll put in that I was 14 even though I was 7 and as far as my mother's signature well she actually did some she just didn't know she thought it was for school but he was actually for the online business. Which is all legal now by the way I used a fake name with my real name I just switched out my middle name for my first name when I did it at the age of 7 when I actually turned 14 I started a new business and put it as my legal name and sold my old business to my new business so yeah it's all legal now.

It's just things like Remember When mom was gone to sell your old skates and they ended up disappearing and she couldn't find them well I ended up taking them. When you both asked I ended up lying to you and saying that I didn't have them even though you search you never found them because I had them because I didn't want them to be taken away. Mom always took you out to the skating ring and talk to you how to skate but she never did that for me I figured it was just a mother and son thing. But I seen that it seemed to be a ride of Passage or something with her and you seem to enjoy it so I took the skates and I learned how to Skype myself a lot of trial and error and a lot of hitting the ice. I never had all the safety gear like you did so I learned really quick of how to balance myself so I didn't end up getting hurt so bad. Sometimes I thought I was going to have to come clean because I ended up hurting myself but I never did because I was too scared that you found out that I lied and I kept your skates. A big part of me didn't want to mention that I had them because I never had anything of my father's and if anything happened to you I'd probably never have anything of yours so that was another part of why I took them and why I wanted to learn to skate just like you both.

Oh Scarlett I am so sorry my brother said once again. Mom never asked you to skate because you never spoke to her for one in for another she or I never thought that you would like to do it because a lot of times you didn't even like to watch movies with us when we had family night.

The only reason I didn't join in on family night is because I felt like I wasn't wanted or that I was going to make you both upset from me being there and it was me not really like being around mom much because all she ever did was holler at me.