Shoot your shot

Emma

The train whizzes through countryside but I am unable to focus on the beautiful landscapes of British countryside . I check the time on my phone . 15 more minutes and I will be reunited with James.

We have spoken every night since he moved and I can't even put into words how much I miss him and can't wait to smell his familiar scent.

I noticed how James is now being talked about a lot in college and over socials. Girls that have slept with him before are suddenly sharing their stories and making out they are still a thing with James. I know deep down that the things they are saying are not true and are just stories to keep themselves relevant but it hurts none the less.

I woke up at 6am this morning to get ready for today. I've never looked so good but the thought of James calling it a day so soon actually make me want to throw up. I hate to admit that I have fallen for him so badly already, I like to protect my heart but I unable to stop my feelings for him. It's like a wheel that's rolling down a hill and gaining momentum and there is nothing I can do to stop it.

My train is finally pulling into the station and I can feel my heart rate pick up. I'm a mixed bag of nerves and excitement. I grab my overnight hold-all from the rack and exit the train.

The station is really busy and James told me he would meet me at the barriers. I approach and start craning my neck to see him. I have no luck and pass through the barriers. I pick a quieter spot and stand there staring around . I pull my phone out to ring him when my eyes fall to the most handsome boy holding the biggest bunch of flowers. When our eyes meet we both just run.

I jump towards him and James catches me as I wrap my legs around him. I am so much smaller than him so I feel like I am a rag doll. His familiar scent reaches my nose and I instantly feel at home. Our lips instantly find each other and we both don't want to pull apart. His kiss is so familiar but so missed. I can't even begin to imagine what passers by are thinking but I am so caught up that I don't even care.

After what felt like minutes, James places me back down and grins from ear to ear. All of my nerves about his feelings have gone and I am just over the moon to be here with him. He hands me a beautiful bouquet of flowers- they are slightly bent in places from our dramatic reunion but that only makes me smile wider.

James tells me about all the local hot spots as we pass them. His flat is near the sea front and only a ten minute walk away. As we walk I can feel that James is attracting a lot of attention from females. I am not sure if news has spread that fast about him now being a pro footballer or if it's just because of his natural good looks. Either way I want to scream at them all to fuck off.

As we approach his flat I can't help but admire how stunning it is . With little Juliet balconies overlooking the sea. I can so imagine living here. These are things I choose not to vocalise though in fear of him running a million miles. I also don't want him to think his fame and money is making me more attracted to him. I would love him without all of this.

Inside is even more breath taking. His furniture is so stylish and I'm sure he got in a designer. The walls are neutral and the furniture is a mixture of wood and blacks with lots of plants in the mix. It's such a high end and classic style.

The minute my bag is down James grabs me and kisses me again. This time we can really take our time.
" I've missed you so fucking much Emma" he says as he pulls away from me. I can see how genuine he is when he says it and my heart melts into a puddle.

I push James down onto his Sofa and straddle him. I am not a confident girl but when it comes to him I am willing to show him just how much he means to me. James is surprised by my move but also I can see the excitement in his eyes.

I begin to kiss and lick his neck , finally sucking on his sweet spot causing him to groan. I am grinding on him and can feel just how hard he is for me.

I strip as seductively as possible and I can feel James eyes taking in every inch of me. His hands are roaming up and down my thighs and finally glide up towards my thighs and in between them. I lower myself to my knees and slowly remove any material in the way and take James in my mouth.

He swears out loud and continues to let me lick and suck him. After a couple of minutes James pulls me up. " I am close Em and I need to be inside you".

I waste no time before I climb on top of him and lower myself into his rock hard dick. We both moan at the pleasure and I know that this won't last long.

I move every so slightly and can feel James hitting deep inside me. I've never felt sex so deep. I have to stop moving because the feeling is too intense. I look at James who is staring at me. It's a look I haven't seen before. The desire and emotion in his eyes is so evident.
" I love you Emma" .

My heart is hammering and my breathing is all over the place. Those words. Those words reflect how I feel. I had no idea he felt the same.
" I love you so much James" I say and our lips meet in a frantic but passionate kiss. We kiss each other like our lives depended on it. I start riding him as we kiss and a minute later we're both releasing.

***

The weekend flew by so fast. We spent all of Saturday fucking and watching films. On Sunday we went for a walk down the lanes in brighton. There were some cute shops and cafes and we both enjoyed exploring the town.
I found some clothes to try on in one shop so went off to the changing room leaving James to browse the men's section.

The clothes looked great and I was starting to feel more confident to wear clothes suited to my figure. As I was leaving the changing room I heard james in conversation with somebody . A girl.

I stopped in my tracks and listened in. I shouldn't spy but curiosity got the better of me.
" I've seen you around. I saw you at Bar Med two nights ago".
" yeah I was there with my team mates".
" it's hard to not notice you. Do you have a girlfriend? "
" yeah I do she's actually trying on clothes".
" too bad. If anything changes you'll see me around handsome".

My heart sinks and as I round the corner I see the stunning blonde wink at James and walk off. I struggled to read the expression on James face but when he sees me he smiles and acts like that encounter never happened. The thought doesn't sit well with me. I know he is likely protecting my feelings but a darker more jealous part of me thinks maybe he likes the attention and wants girls making moves on him. I hate my own mind for channeling these insecurities.

I try and act like I hadn't just overheard the conversation and smile brightly at James " who's that babe?" I say in my most casual tone.
" Nobody" replies James as he pulls me to him and plants a kiss on my head.

***

It's now 6pm and my train is leaving in ten minutes. The thought of getting on it and not seeing James for another 3 weeks is hard. We both have gone quiet as we know our time together is at its end. I sigh as I hear the announcement for my platform and begin to move. James grabs me and makes me sit on his lap. His deep voice whispers into my ear " let me hold you for two more minutes babe" and I nod and relax into him. I inhale his scent like the more I take in the longer it will stay with me.

Another announcement comes moments later and we both know I need to leave. James takes my hand and my hold-all and walks me to the train.
I face him and our eyes meet. I never realised how hard leaving him would feel. I'm hoping this gets easier over time.

" thank you for the best weekend James" . I mean every word. This will always be my favourite weekend.
" Thank you Emma. I will be back down soon to visit I promise. When I get a window I will drive straight down to you. I love you"
He tips my chin up and kisses me softly.
" love you too". I take my bag from him and jump onto the train. I sit by the window so I can still see James.  He looks as sad as I feel and I want to jump off and just stay with him forever but I know that's not real life. I have commitments and dreams too.  James is now on his phone and my phone beeps.
" I miss you already Em" I smile back and mouth that I miss him too.

The train begins to pull away and James stands rooted to the spot. He gets smaller and smaller until I cannot see him anymore. Tears fall onto my cheeks and I am surprised to feel them.

I just hope it isn't too long until I next see him.