This story is next in line. Once I finish connected, I'll start pushing forward on this one. It's a rewrite of my story toxic with less of an 18+ focus. I figured why not give you a bit of a preview to get you prepared for what's to come!
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I saw you today. I watched you from the crowd like we'd always dreamt of. The spotlight was shining on you and the sound of my racing heart thumped along with the beat while you sang so effortlessly. You're still everything I remember you being, but they did change you. They changed your curly hair that always failed to behave. They changed your deep loving gaze into an intense slow burning fire. But. Deep down I know you're still in there.
I know the carefree, adorable boy I grew up with is still there. However... I don't know if I'm still there. I don't know if I'm still in that pretty little head of yours. Would it fix anything if I said I was sorry now? Would an apology make you come back? Would you even have time to? Do I even have a place in your life anymore? Or am I just a forgotten piece of your past? Something you discarded to make room for the memories the spotlight brings?
It hurts a bit. It hurts seeing you living your dream—our dream. It hurts knowing I stood next to you through all your pain and suffering leading up to your very first concert. It hurts knowing you were never there for mine—never knew my first concert was even happening.
Standing there in the crowd—in the front row—so close to you yet so far—I saw you smile. I saw the sparkle in your eyes—the happiness that radiated off of you. What happened to that sparkle belonging to me? You told me I was the only one who could ever make you that happy, but now I'm gone. I'm gone from your life and you're still happy. You're shining even brighter without me.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day I finally get to achieve my own dream of standing on stage. The only problem is it's not beside you. I'm not standing next to my best friend. My other half. I'm not even sure how I feel about it knowing you won't even notice me. Even if I stood in the center of the stage and the only person in the crowd was you—would you see me? Could you see me through the filter the idol life gifted you?
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FanfictionWatching from the crowd, EunChae watches her best friend achieve all of his dreams. The memory of her something he seems to have forgotten despite just how far back it goes.
