Through The Blinds | Skz

Chapter 13 - Changbin

TW- Sexual Content!!!! (Masturbation) otherwise you can read relatively safely~ lol I'm late but I'm here! I hope you enjoy this chapter! Thank you for reading this far!

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I didn't recognize the name Felix gave me. I had never been much of social butterfly like him so it wasn't surprising. Something about it felt familiar though.

Chris Bang huh...

"I'll write it on my board, it's definitely suspicious that dad was friends with his father. I mean, most people were though." I lazily replied, sipping my water.

"You're not wrong...hey uh.." Felix got a serious expression.

"I mean, we've never really talked about things back then, Changbin." Felix looked down, avoiding eye-contact.

"I know my friends sucked and we never really got as close as you and Emeline...but I want you to know I'm here for you and I'll always listen to you." Felix looked sympathetically at me, his eyes scanned my face.

My chest tightened and I sighed, "Thank you Felix, you helped me a lot during senior year, and...I wish I'd had a friend like you back then."

Felix smiled melancholically at me, and sighed, "I guess that means you'd prefer not to talk about things?"

I nodded, swallowing hard. It's not that the events of that night constantly haunted me or anything, but I'd much rather not remember it if I didn't have to. It made me feel sick. I didn't want to loose all the food I'd just eaten.

"Maybe we should go, I'm feeling a bit tired." I smiled roughly at Felix, trying to tell him it wasn't his fault I didn't feel like continuing the conversation. I really liked Felix, but I also wasn't quite ready to go that deep with him. And I'd rather not vomit in the restaurant.

Felix nodded, "Whatever you need man, it doesn't bother me." He gave me a small smile.

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Back at the dorm, Seungmin was still not home. It was a bit odd for him, but I didn't know him well enough to say if it was normal behavior.

I resolved to wait until tomorrow, and see if he came back. Maybe I'd have to ask around to see where he was. I wished I'd thought to get his number earlier.

I took my shoes off and set down my phone. I sighed loudly and glanced around the room blankly. I felt off. The sick feeling had left, leaving behind an odd emptiness. I noticed the collar sitting on my desk. I absentmindedly went over and picked it up.

I inspected it thoroughly, the thing was quite heavy and definitely strong. The fibers felt sturdy, and plastic-y under my fingers. The shiny black material seemed hard enough to knock against and make a noise. I ran my fingers over it, feeling the cool metal of the leash loop. It reminded me of Bangchan's piercing.

My mind began to wander. I remembered wearing this, and feeling completely under his control when he pulled at it. It was a comforting feeling to be told exactly what to do by someone I trusted so much. Like I didn't have to think about all the hard things anymore. He could do that for me. I wondered what it would feel like to be restrained by him. Physically rather than by his words.

It didn't seem like it'd be bad when I imagined it. Maybe a rope with a similar material to the collar. Wrapped around my wrists, maybe my torso as well, digging into my skin without care to the pain I would be in. Leaving dark bruises that would stay for days afterwards. Keeping me from moving. Letting Bangchan make my decisions for me.

My imagination was surprisingly detailed, I sat down on my bed and held the collar to my neck. How did it feel again? I thought. I snapped it open, and tentatively slid the garment around my neck. I snapped it in the back and let my fingers run along the material and underneath it. I mimicked what Bangchan had done earlier. I slid them underneath, scratching my neck. I subconsciously reached around my neck and squeezed, as if I was choking myself. How would it feel if he did it? With his arms around me. How would it feel?

I felt a bit fuzzy as I reached down with my other hand to grab my length. I was already a bit hard before, and I started to palm myself slowly at first. I imagined being tied so my arms couldn't move, so tightly I felt a bit of burn in my muscles. I imagined his hand, doing this to me. I imagined his eyes looking at me, and I felt red. I wanted him to look at me more.

I moved faster and started holding in slight noises. The walls were probably thin and I didn't want to be heard. I couldn't stop though, and I imagined what he might say to me.

"Are you doing that because you want me to spoil you? Do you want me to tell you you're a good boy?"

"Do you want people to hear you screaming because of me?"

I held on tightly to my neck underneath the collar and moved quickly rubbing my length. My fingers pushed hard on my favorite spots, making the skin move up and down with the speed of my hand.

"You like me that much huh? You're so good, letting me see like this, you're so pretty."

"You like it when I call you pet names don't you? When I call you a good boy?"

I made a louder noise, I felt even more groggy. I did want him to tell me I'd done a good job. It made me feel needed when he said things like that to me. It made me want to do whatever he said. I wanted him to praise me.

"Are you going to cum? Be good, and let me watch."

I wanted him to feel the same about me. I want to do what he asks and have him cum because of me. Something about him made me feel so submissive. I had never felt like this for anyone before, it was both scary and incredibly sexy.

I squeezed hard on my neck and felt my breathing hitch. I picked up the pace even more on my member, feeling the pre-cum roll down my hand. I was close.

"Are you waiting for permission? You're so cute. Go on, cum for me."

I felt myself release onto my bed, I took a second afterwards to blink. I felt that euphoric fuzzy feeling fade away.

I thought about what I'd just done. I still had the collar around my neck, it was tight. I couldn't deny it anymore. I like him. I blushed, hard, I covered my face in shame. This was to embarrassing. I was so glad he wasn't able to see me right now.

I cleaned up, and did my nightly routine. I couldn't get rid of my blush though, and I went to bed just like that. Worried I'd remember tonight when I saw him in class the next day.

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Thats it :0 I don't rly know how guys...you know...so this was just me guessing :/
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