Through The Blinds | Skz

Chapter 14 - Changbin

TW- nothing crazy, references to masturbation :p
It's mostly plot again~ and lots of setup 😏 I have big plans! It might be obvious...but the plans are still big! See you at the end~ (unedited :p)

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When I woke up, I did the motions of my morning routine in a daze. Muscle memory kept me from being late to class. It's not that I wasn't able to think or anything, I was just so absorbed in my feelings, and all the people acting weird around me. It reminded me I'd forgotten to check if Seungmin had come home.

I was already only going to just be on time so I skipped going back inside to check for him and told myself he'd be back later if he wasn't already sleeping. I went to class trying to shake off the feeling I had missed something.

I arrived in the lecture hall a bit late, not after it had begun, but late enough that Bangchan was already sitting in the seat next to where I'd been the first day.

I walked over, adrenaline in my steps, up to him and walked past to sit down. I didn't make eye contact and kept my face turned away, I didn't want my thoughts last night to show. I made myself busy adjusting my bag, until I felt a hand on my back.

"Hey, are you alright?" Bangchan asked, tapping my back.

"O-oh, yeah I'm fine. I was just getting a pencil..." I explained, sitting back up quickly, trying not to be awkward. I wondered if I was red at all, I was definitely feeling a bit warm temperature-wise.

"I'm glad...you got home alright?" Bangchan asked.

"Yeah, it was fine." I smiled, trying not to make eye contact. It was too awkward. I didn't know if he felt the same about me, and I masturbated to the idea of him tying me up. It really doesn't get much more complicated than that.

He tilted his head, trying to follow my gaze and make eye contact. He was getting closer to me, leaning towards me innocently. I felt dirty for thinking about this genuine, sweet person in that sexual way. Even though we had done sexual things before, it still felt weird to be coming from my own mind.

I avoided eye contact until he had put himself so close it was becoming extremely difficult to keep ignoring him. I eventually caved, and let out a sigh before turning to face him all at once in a burst of bravery. I immediately regretted it.

He looked incredible. I had always thought he was extremely attractive, but before I hadn't had such a calm, close up look at it. His skin was smooth and unblemished on his face, it was glowing. He had great proportions, and long eyelashes. He was masculine but comfortingly feminine, he gave me a warm feeling. His eyes looked at me, concerned, and somehow I felt like I could live in them. He made me feel good.

"You're acting odd, Changbin." He blinked at me and spoke softly. I looked at his lips. They were full and pretty, I couldn't believe I'd kissed them before. "I worry about you, you know."

I blinked, fluttering my eyelashes slightly. I felt a bit of blush hit my face and I quickly glanced away.

"I'm alright...I just, my roommate's been acting weird and I've had a lot to think about." I explained vaguely, "It's nothing serious."

"You mean Seungmin? What, has he been acting weird?" Bangchan looked at me with a concerned expression.

"I guess, he's just been acting oddly, and I haven't seen him since Saturday morning." I said, sighing, and feeling the anxiety of our proximity fade a bit.

"I'm sure he'll be alright? Maybe try talking to him when you see him." Bangchan gave me some advice.

I sighed again. I had so much to worry about. Bangchan being here to listen helped a lot. I loved Felix, but it was awkward to talk to him about certain things since he experienced some of the parts of my past firsthand. Bangchan however, was a third party, and his opinions felt extra validating.