Through The Blinds | Skz

Chapter 11 - Changbin

TW- nothing crazy~ read as you like! Some references to sex tho :p this one's short and late 💀 hope y'all enjoy! (Unedited :/)

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"Here, I thought you might not want to wear a collar around." Bangchan said, "so I got you this watch to wear instead."

I blinked at him, still feeling embarrassed from what we'd just finished doing. He made me feel lightheaded, and fuzzy. I felt so safe with him, like I could do anything or be anything and he would accept me. I tilted my head in confusion.

"Why would I need a watch instead?" I asked.

"Well, I bought that collar for you as a gift, but you probably won't use it much so here's something you can easily wear outside." Bangchan explained while he slipped the cool metal watch around my wrist. It made me shiver when it touched my hot skin. It was classic, with a round face and a techy look. I liked it.

I touched a finger to the glass face and listened to it tick. Twelve o'clock I thought, reading the face carefully. Something about the fact he had given it to me made me happy too, since he must have been thinking about me while picking it out. We had only been seeing each other for a few days but he seemed to understand me so easily. I liked him. A lot.

He smiled at me as I looked up from the watch to meet his eyes. "I like it on you, you're pretty."

I blinked and looked down at the watch again quickly, not making any eye contact. It was too awkward. I fidgeted with the metal band of the watch. The feeling was nice.

"Do you want to go out now?" He asked me quietly.

I nodded.

"With or without the collar." He asked, placing a hand on my head again. It made me feel like I was really his pet or something, what with all the petting.

I didn't respond at first. I wasn't sure how I felt. It was embarrassing to wear something like this, but it also felt good to have something so concrete to show off. It was an undeniable evidence that Bangchan liked me. Wait. Does he like me? Did he ever say he liked me? Is this a one sided relationship? It has only been a couple days....that's moving really fast after all. I thought.

While I was lost in thought, Bangchan moved his hand from my head down my face to place his fingers on my lips. He pushed slightly, and I opened my mouth to let him put his fingers inside. He pushed my tongue around a bit and I responded accordingly. It was a weird feeling, somehow I almost liked this more than kissing him. I bit lightly on his fingers, and he pressed hard on my tongue, silently telling me to back off. I made a small noise, I couldn't think very well yet so I went with the flow and listened to what he told me. I was so lost being the receiver.

"Use your words to tell me what you need baby." Bangchan looked at me kindly. Ugh he is too good at this! I can't help but go at his pace...

He took his fingers out of my mouth and I felt a bit sad they were gone. I whipped the drool from my face and blinked a couple times to get my bearings.

"I'm scared to wear this around outside, I thought I'd be ok but this is too much Bangchan." I answered.

"It's alright. I'm so happy you wanted to wear it at all, and we got to have some fun with it." He assured me, "I'd like to do a lot more in the future though."

I felt myself get red again. This felt like an unofficial confirmation that he wanted to keep seeing me. And as I was realizing my feelings I was increasingly happy about his interest in me. Just like the rest of campus I was probably going to be smitten with him.

"O-ok." I answered verbally, I'd like to do more with you too...

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As we left the café I felt hyper aware of everyone we walked past. I kept looking over my shoulder, checking to see if anyone was looking at me. It must have been because of all we'd done in the bathroom. I also felt a bit guilty, since I'd been the only one who came.

I glanced at Bangchan's back. He was standing in front of me, leading me back to the campus. I wondered if he was feeling turned on back there or not. He didn't seem quite as effected by what we'd done as I was, or as turned on as I had been.

I thought back to what we'd done so far, and neither time had he taken any clothes off. Both times I'd been the one exposed in some way. Was he just not interested? But he kept mentioning how much more he wanted to do...I don't know.

We walked in silence back to his frat house, since I was so absorbed in thought. The walk was nice and serene. I found myself fidgeting with the watch he gave me. I twisted it against my wrist, feeling the cool metal, it was comforting. I liked his gift. I liked him.

"Do you feel alright, Changbin?" He interrupted my thoughts.

"Oh, yeah I'm ok...I was just wondering..." I trailed off.

"Wondering...?" He asked, walking up to me, and reaching a hand up to my face. He hovered there as if waiting for my permission to touch me.

I leaned my head into his hand, my face in his palm. He jumped a bit in surprise. I put my hand over his and leaned in more. I made eye contact and saw his flustered expression clearly.

"Bangchan, are you interested in me?" I finally asked, "like, more than sex friends."

He gave me one of his kind smiles and laughed a bit. "Is that what this is about?"

I didn't like how he sounded slightly dismissive of my worries, but I didn't think too hard about it.

"Yeah."

"Changbin. I love you."

I felt a bit red again. And my mind started to spiral. I stepped back and covered my face as the red intensified. Something about this love confession was way more overwhelming than my previous partners. He also said I love you. I didn't expect something like that so early, we weren't even dating yet. It was easy to say we barely even knew each other and somehow he loved me. I wasn't sure if I should be flustered or concerned. I couldn't look at him until I'd figured my emotions out some.

I heard his step closer. "Why do you ask?"

"I-I was just curious...no reason." I couldn't ask him any more while I wasn't even sure of myself. My feelings were messy. It had only been a few days after all. This was all too fast.

"Ok, I get it. I'm going inside alright? You can take this home with you." Bangchan said, holding out his hand, giving me the collar.

I held it in my hands and blinked at him. A silent question.

"I just want you to have it." He explained simply, already making his way up to the door.

"O-okay."

"Goodbye Changbin. I'll text you." He winked at me and went inside, closing the door behind him.

"I'll be waiting..." I whispered my response.

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Not much to say~ see you tomorrow! Much love ❤️