Just Friends

Pray for those who are willing

Da'Nez POV

"Y'all when I tell you we ended up rushing up them stairs to get ice water and ended up plopping on the couch going to sleep. Looking dead, when I heard the front door open it was around 6:00 am and I went to the bathroom in our bedroom took a long shower I even washed my freshly relaxed hair, scalp burning like a bitch, I should've never been scratching but anyway, I got out the shower dried off, lotion up went to lay down with no clothes on that fan was blasting and it felt amazing, I was in heaven yall. Till this nigga Joc wanna play some damn RIO DA YUNG OG BITCH I HOLLARD. Migraine mothafucken bussin everything.

'Joc baby, why the fuck is you talking about had a three-sum with 2 fat hoes? And yes negro I know it's a song but yo head should be spinning like Mine, it's time for bed.'

"You know I really wanna play some Pretty Ricky and slut yo ass out." You still on that?

'Uh I wasn't giving you a sure response, my love I'm sorry but a towel and a few booty rubs should do you Justice, you feel me?'

"Ugh you right." He gets in the bed and starts to play with his dingaling and he just being so gentle, he rubbing more than my booty he think he slick, but ouuuwee he massaging my spine I can't help but let out a slight moan, shit my head hurt he think he tryna do something. "I know that shit feel good don't it? You want me to get the baby oil, lay on your stomach. I promise I won't try shit."

'You can keep yo hands to yourself at this point.'

"What you on Dae? The fuck is wrong with you?"Joc slaps my ass so damn hard, my reflexes kick in and I punch the nigga dead in his face hard. Oh fuck! "Bitch did you just punch me? Yeah you on something and I ain't sure if because you seen the nigga you used to fuck or what, cause this shit ain't it. All I did was smack yo fat bad built ass you like that shit but you put yourself in danger, cause if I ain't love you I would've been don't knocked your cranium loose, on pops."

'Bad built? Since when you talking to me like a bum bitch on the streets. Should've talked to that white girl like that not me, cause yo stamina may be good, but your stroke game mad weak.'

"I'll break yo shit in, watch how you talk to me Imma have yo ass bleeding, or you want me to bring gang in here and spread yo ass like the hoe you is?"

'First off I'm a leave cause you not talking to me, you need to calm down, you also need to apologize to me, you started this nonsense, you just need time to yourself and need to realize, that I'm here for you but at the end, yo true colors are showing. And I don't think it's best we be together under these circumstances along with the name calling and degrading ass shit you say to me. So Jacques I'm leaving and I want you, to know I loved you, and yes loved, I'm torn right now that's why I said loved because we can be in it together for one another or go our own ways.'As I said calmly holding back tears and anger. Cause this nigga keep treating me fucked up. It's all up to you to choose. I get my phone, charger, all my main needs and order myself a uber.

"Deep down you ain't really love me for real, I only say this outta love baby, nobody can ever love a nigga like me, my mama gave up a long time ago. I can say the system failed me, as a boy, and as a man. All I can do allow people to give up on me. My mind be going places, It's either death or jail for me. Ain't no happy ended. I'm the grim reaper , my name do ring bells in the streets. My words come from defense, jealousy, and hatred. I've done found my people dead. Life is not a game. I gotta play my cards right. I've been smoking opps since a youngin 16 thuggin. It's a lifestyle that haunts me, I'm too deep. My apologies for talking to you like that, but baby can't you see that I'm unhappy. Soul on its last life and you keeping me from letting it go." Side motherfucken eye.

'This some sucka ass shit like boy be fucking for real. Just say you sorry and I apologize, lick theses kneecaps and ass crack and call it A night.'

"Baby I'll do what ever, you want. I do apologize, sincerely, but a drunk never tells a lie. Shit my heart ache a nigga conflicted, On one hand I trust you with my heart on the other I don't have one it's been gone. You have all my attention. I'm tweaking and I hate my self it's better if I'm sober but I can open up when I'm not. Like to be honest it's whatever.

'Baby cut that sad shit out you know I love you and I got you. Stop testing me like you tryna check something. Mentally we all got something going on. You can't keep worrying about tomorrow when you don't know if you gonna make it the rest of the day.'

"True." Here he go with this shit..... which one is it you sad, or you good? Nonchalant ass niggas mane.

'Yup.'

"You right for real, for real. A nigga just tryna open up to his women, you know? It's all outta love baby. Cause I do love you? You know that right. I know how to show it but not feel it."

'You wanna feel some love?'

"Hell yeah."

'What do you mean by that? Elaborate?' Why his posture change? Why he look mad now hold on. Calm down baby boy.

"First off you gone take these backshots, I'm a nut in you right? Then you gonna slurp this bitch clean."

'Is that so?'

"Mhm since you wanna be licked you finna take some dick, if you push me, run, any of that you getting smacked on. You feel me?"

'Mhmm' His eyes don't sparkle like they was 10 minutes ago, they dead inside, he not gone but the devil can't win, lord I know he trying lord forgive me, lord watch over me and your children lord, I thank the heavily father for allowing me to live past the next day....with this man you put I'm my life, hopefully he not tryna take it I know you got my back, cause lord if this man take me away I'm taking his behind with me.