Just Friends

Too Much

DA'NEZ POV

As we're heading to Walmart. I look at Joc, he just tryna live his life right, but I don't bring up his unaliving of people, he just better keep begging for forgiveness. That's all I know because that's what scares me most, but he ain't really went no where without me so he ain't no serial killer. I'm going to say it's self defense. Yep, self defense. I'm thinking about it too much, I'm just gonna hook my phone up to the aux.  I play Chaka Khan.

"Change this shit Dae"  

'Ain't nobody love me better, makes me happy makes me feel this way!'

"You play to damn much, put on Some real Nigga shit, we going to Walmart. I don't want to listen to Chaka Khan and Drive. Play Some Keyshia Cole." So as I raise my eyebrow and looked over, I played Love By Miss Keyshia Cole.

'Better?'

"Yeah" So I'm still looking over at him and he opens his mouth and started singing "🎶So empty, my heart, my Soul, CANT GO ON, GO ON, BABY, WITHOUT YOU. 🎶" Damnmn do I hear a melody or something sound good, so good, too good he gave me chills Down my spine. Ouuu I should play Charlene By Anthony Hamilton, well see if he could sing. 

'So who had you in your feelings in the county?'

"Me, myself and I. My mama duke on The side, Why?"

'Cause you sung that with your whole heart. Sing Charlene.'

"Why, when my women not gonna leave me? Or are you?"

'hm, Well I just wanted to hear a little bit of soul its a very much passionate and soulful song and I think it would sound lovely.'

"You ain't answer my question you finna leave me, you willing to?"

'Never said that. You finna leave me?'

"I asked first though."

'Are you ready for the deep conversations or a light answer.'

"Shit what ever you wanna say."

'The light answer is no I won't leave you'

"I mean I guess I ain't ready for the conversation either."

'Exactly, so we gotta take shit slow since we saw each other, everything just been fast.'

"You think it's too fast?"

'No it just feel a little quick, we barley argue, I mean like threaten to leave each other it's like we argue over petty shit and it gets resolved, like we a old ass married couple.'

"I get it but never old married couple, just two people who don't waste time."

'I suppose.' As Joc parks in the parking lot of Walmart, we get out the car and he holds my hand into the store. It's like he knows how to be sweet but he has a hard time like he is fighting for his own happiness. I don't know maybe I'm too in my head because, I constantly overthink and I'm trying to find my own peace.'

"Just don't think about it, you high still. Don't pay too much attention to it, and I grabbed your hand cause you my lady."

'You reading my mind.'

"Girl naw you not even holding my hand I'm holding yours, you even flinched when I grabbed it, then you stared off into space and shit, like damn. It's okay."

Joc grabs a basket As we're heading to the swimming suits, he throwing random shit in the cart, like candy, other things games, legos , like what? 'Joc what you getting random things for?'

"You can put whatever you want in the cart you know everything on me, and most these things are for us at the pool and for my god daughter, Sie's daughter you know."

'Oh okay cool' as we're heading around the store together I'm putting things in the cart like stuff to make us lunch a cooler for the lunch for real everything I need for a productive day, I can't forget my swim suit either because that's the whole mission, Joc grabs some swim trunk's that are the same color as the one piece I picked out of course the swimsuit is baby teal a very soft pastel and he wanna we're soft pastel swim trucks looking like a damn hoochie daddy he can. So as we're wrapping up shopping, here comes a women pushing a seems to be 2 year old towards us, as she slowing down.

"I have a restraining order against you don't come near me."

"He is your baby Jacques."

"No he's not I've got a DNA test, Fred said that's his kid, he showed me the documents and everything. Stay the heck away from me mane." This what  Dee asked about him and Kesha's baby.

"Joc I just miss you, you promised we gone be a family."

"First of all we dated 1 month before I got locked up 3 month in the county you tell me you 4 months pregnant and I'm the father, then I do the rest of my 12 months and you telling me I'm the father, I pillowtalk. But outta respect for your son, leave me alone and keep me outta your mind, so he won't grow up confused and bitter like his mama stay 300 feet away" Joc snatches me up and we turn around and head to check out. "Man I can't stand that fonky ass bitch for real, like she a weird bitch, she asked to move in after the first link and don't you say nothing, after that first day, first night type shit. I needed to keep my eye on you, I enjoyed spending time with you everyday. I don't cuss in front of kids or the elderly, these bitches keep coming back to back I can't stand these hoes, these weird opp acting, loose as buckets, these bitches walked the blade for me. On my dead homies, these bitches gave me their taxes, stimulus, and the ppp loan, they ain't  the only hoes who brought me a bag before I got locked up. Imma certified ism, I don't flip packs and ion gotta fuck shit to get money outta bitch, I know money money, money know me. Man Dae you just don't know man." What the fuck.

'Bro what, you good, you having flashbacks, umm, yeah I notice you didn't cuss you were being respectful. But Babe I understand that your upset and a tad bit angry, I understand you were pimping and what not. But baby you can't hype yourself up over the wrong bullshit, shit people is weird Ight, you gotta take that shit and let the rain wash away ya feel me gang.'

"Baby, I'm just saying she know who her bd is, and I know this ain't over the 35k, she just obsessed, I'm sorry you had to hear that. But till further notice the only person I have to be their and be a man to is god,myself, my dukes, and you. So let me pay for our shit so we can go swimming." This is that one moment when we realize people would pop in when life is good. And that ain't nothing but bad juju, the devil, and pure ignorances, I've been in my thoughts so much lately it's hard to stay focus sometimes. But I'm going swimming for the first actually having a friend to have fun and go swimming with, other times just we're boring, but Dj gonna be there and man Joc finna be on my ass literally, he ain't finna let nobody look at me. As joc and I get done putting the stuff in the car we head to the pool, and you know I'm on the aux. "I'm doing 80 in a 60 fuck a ticket"

'Aye man" I bust out and start laughing, I change the song nobody got time for no accidents 'Dont think about it too much, too much, tooooo much'

"Fuck you change the song for, for Drake? Mane that's ass."

' What does the song say Dont think about it too much, too much, tooooo muchhhhhh'