A Chanjin Vampire story
(Cover edit: Made by me)
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He made me feel loved without his touch.
He kissed my scars without an ounce of lust.
Should I be worthy of such an untainted heart?
A single parent trying to make ends meet for his child by selli...
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Hyunjin P.O.V
When I was younger and saw couples being sweet to each other around me I used to get a bit envious. Actually I was lot envious. I mean I did feel happy for them, those who found love in each other. Over the years, when my dreams turned into nightmares, I realised that love was probably just an illusion. And then with the omnipresent judgement of society being my only partner in life this realisation of mine solidified.
Love only exists in story books. In myths. The emotion itself is a huge myth.
At least that's what I told myself. Because that's easier than accepting that maybe I am not meant for love. That I am not worthy of something so beautiful and pure.
I find the belief of mine to be shaken these days (sometimes). When he asks me how my day was after he comes back from work, no matter how tired he is himself. When he smiles so brightly everytime I make him dinner even though he makes us breakfast every morning. When he gleams with joy everytime Yeji calls him "appa". When he looks at me gently for absolutely no reason. When he is always patient and kind. Kindness that frees my sleep of nightmares.
Don't get me wrong. He pisses me off too (sometimes). When his eyes aren't on me, it's annoying. When his smile is not directed towards me, it's infuriating. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would get jealous of my own daughter. I am ashamed but I don't know how else to feel when he only cuddles with Yeji-
Wait. Do I want him to cuddle with me? No! No no no! Absolutely not! ....maybe kind of...a little bit?
NO! What am I even thinking! Mr. Bangchan is plain irritating and nothing else.
Maybe a bit handsome too.
Whatever! I do not find myselfyearning for him in the least!
Right?
Perhaps these weren't the best thoughts to be circulating inside of a mashed up brain while having dinner with your in-laws. But my train of thoughts came to an abrupt halt with Chris said something strange.
Something that seemed to pierce the hearts of the lovely family like poisonous arrows. Yet, Christopher looked the most wounded.
I couldn't bring myself to leave him alone when everyone left the table. Even a drowsy Yeji was taken so she could nap away from the tense environment.
I asked him if he was okay. I knew he wasn't but I didn't expect him to answer honestly. I felt a bit at ease when he did. It felt like he trusted me, just like I trust him. Trust that comes so naturally, it surprises me way too often. I never knew I would know trust or love.
