firstly I am so sorry for every trans person living in the US rn. What's happening there is terrifying and I cannot put in words how horrified I am that we are going back in history in such rapid pace.
age: 15
info: you go by she/her pronouns and are mtf
tw: panic attack, transphobia
word count: 1,2k
————Y/n's POV
I'm currently taking a break from my stupid maths homework Bruce would normally help me with, but he's on mission. I mindlessly scroll through my TikTok for-you-page and chuckle at one of those random 'guess who jumped into the pool without permission'-TikToks.
But that chuckle is quickly replaced with quietness as I swipe on- 'Texas bans gender affirming healthcare for trans children' I read. My heart drops to the bottom of my stomach. What?
I quickly click on the linked article which sends me to an official website. Of course I knew about the debate about it, but actually passing laws like this-
Then I read it again 'Florida courts could allow 'emergency' custody of kids with trans parents or siblings' my throat goes dry. They couldn't do something like that, could they? 'Lawmakers in Tennessee filed bills to ban gender-affirming health care for children' my eyes gloss over.
Why can't they just let me be? What have I done to them? Why can't I live the way I want?
I stumble out of my room with tears steaming down my face- I'm not sobbing I'm just... disappointed? scared? hurt? I can't stop my tears, they just keep falling, I don't even want them to stop, I want everyone to know the pain I'm in, I want them to know what they're causing me.
I just want my Mama. Where is my Mama?
With my phone in a tight grip I make my way to the kitchen. The closer I come the clearer I hear the voices of Tony and Wanda- and my mom. I walk into the kitchen and stop in the doorframe just silently standing there, waiting for someone to notice me. "Are you alright y/n?" Tony asks causing my mom to turn around immediately. "Y/n what's wrong?" she questions worried and a second later I find myself in the safe embrace of her arms. In that moment I let myself break, I start to sob uncontrollably and cling onto her for dear life. She lowers the two of us safely to the ground, noticing how weak my knees got and pulls me in her lap.
"Shh, whatever it is, it's gonna be okay" she coos. But this isn't gonna 'be okay' this is never gonna be okay. "Can you tell Mama what's going on, my sweet girl?" she asks and works her fingers through my hair which is slightly wavy at the moment because I wore two braids for the last two days. "Tell me what's going on" she instructs softly. "T-they passed the l-laws" I whimper, feeling myself tear up even more- it hits different when you say it out loud.
Natasha's POV
I don't really have an idea what she's talking about if I'm honest. "They passed what laws?" I ask, but instead of an answer she starts to cry harder, almost hysterically. "I'm a girl Mama, I'm a girl" she cries "Shh, I know you are, you're my little daughter" I say
"They gonna kill me, Mama they gonna kill me" she wails. My eyes meet Wanda's and she sends me a concerned look. I hold her head close to my chest and Wanda places herself next to us slowly. "Y/n, tell Mama what's wrong" I instruct softly. Before I can comprehend what's happening y/n unlocks her phone and hands it to her aunt.
I watch with worry as Wanda's eyes quickly scan over the article and gloss over in the same second. "This is bad Nat" she whispers "They're passing anti-trans laws"
I think my heart actually stopped for a second before I snap y/n's phone out of her hand and read through the articles myself.
What the fuck?
"Y/n baby, I am so sorry" is the first thing I say before I wrap my arms around her more tightly. "They're gonna kill me, they're gonna kill me" she whimpers over and over again as her breathing becomes more rapid with every second passing. I pull her face off my chest so that she's facing me. My thumbs caress over her cheeks and wipe her tears in process. "Y/n, I need you to listen to me, nothing is going to happen to you, we're in New York, you're safe" I say but it doesn't calm her in the slightest, I guess she can't really think rational right now which is completely understandable.
She's practically hyperventilating and if she keeps going like that she's gonna pass out. "Sweetheart, I need you to follow my breathing" I instruct, trying to take her focus off her mind. I purposely slow my breathing down a bit and make it more audible for her to hear.
She tries to copy me but only ends up coughing which makes her breathing worse.
"Y/n, look at me" I coax, but her eyes continue to dart around the room "Y/n, look at your mama" her aunt cuts in. "There you are" I smile softly as her eyes meet mine. "Try to blow on my face, please" I say, hoping for her to do so. A soft breeze of air hits my face which makes my smile grow.
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I've moved y/n and me to my bed and we're now watching an episode of Private Practice to keep her mind of the things that are most definitely absolutely terrifying her.
"I'm scared mama" she whispers into my chest. I pull her more into me so that she's almost on top of me. "They're gonna take me away" she mumbles, her voice breaking, clearly on the verge of crying again. "You do remember who I am, right?" I ask making her chuckle softly "No seriously sweetheart, we're in New York, you're safe and even when New York's not safe anymore because those dickheads decide to take away human rights, then we're gonna move, we're gonna move to a safe place, we're gonna move to Canada or somewhere to Europe or God knows where. But we're gonna move, I'm not gonna let them take you away. You're suffering enough already, my love, I'm not gonna let them make you detransition, I'm gonna keep you safe. And even when the whole world is unsafe I'm going to move to Asgard with you. Nothing, nothing is going to happen, I'm keeping you safe. I love you so much, my beautiful daughter" I whisper pressing kisses on the top of her head
Her grip on me tightens "I love you too" she mumbles
No one is going to hurt her. I'm gonna keep her safe from this country that allows people to shoot around in schools but can't wrap its mind around something as natural as being transgender.
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I hate the US so much lol (and I'm not even living there)does anyone has experience with daith piercings? like healing, pain, etc.
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