What Have I Become?| DabiHawks Fanfic

Monster

Dabi's POV

We had just left Twice's place. We didn't get anything from going there. We had been walking around for a few more minutes. Hawks didn't mention what I did earlier. But I could see that it affected him, and that amused me.

We finally past an alley that was different than the rest. I heard somone whimpering. I looked down the alley, and sure enough, there was Twice. He was rocking back and forth, absolutely hysterical. His mask was torn in half and his head had a gash in it and had blood pouring out, right next to his stitches. His phone was absolutely flat in front of him, meaning someone crushed it. I ran up to him and and took my sweater off and then my shirt before putting my sweater back on. Hawks followed me into the alley.

Hawks' POV

Dabi covered Twice's head with the shirt, tying it in the back to be secured. Then he set next to him and tried to calm him down. Twice was mumbling random words. What I got from it was that he was attacked by some heartless teenagers and that he split apart. Dabi just sat there and comforted him, like a family would.

I didn't feel like I belonged, so I just turned and walked out of the alley. I leaned against the wall an waited for them to come out. Soon enough, they did. Dabi approached me as Twice walked in front of us, going to his house. I talked quietly to Dabi, quiet enough for Twice not to hear us. "Why did he freak out?"

Dabi didn't answer right away. After a few seconds, though, he did. "Twice was attacked by clones of himself a while ago. That's how he got the stitches. And now every time he doesn't have his mask on, he eventually 'splits' and starts freaking on. And the only way to stop it is to cover him up."

I just listened and walked. This seemed like a real family. And it felt like I was intruding. Like I was just here to ruin it all. But that's the thing. I AM here to ruin it all. I'm here to kill them.

Dabi stopped walking. I stopped as well and looked at him. Dabi had his hands in his pockets. "You're really not planning on betraying us, right?"

I shook my head, hating myself for lying to him. "No. I would never."

Dabi sighed. "Because if you are, then I feel like that will be one more thing to just tip me over the edge. More than I already am. These people are all I have. I abandoned my own family for so many reasons. My family was abused and mistreated for so long and I feel like if the same thing happens with this life.... I'll be done. I won't be able to take it."

I felt so much pain as he told me that. All I could think was that I was a horrible person. These people aren't villains. They're broken. They need help. They've just been mistreated. I thought back to what Toga said. She's never even had a stable home. She's 17 and sleeping in a bar.

But then I thought back to my boss. I still have so much to pay him back for. I can't just bail. I sighed. "Don't worry. I'm not a traitor. I want to be part of the LOV."

Dabi smiled a bit. He turned and continued to walk. "I'm glad."

I should have been happy. I had successfully tricked him. But all I could feel was guilt. I felt so sorry for lying to him. I wanted to change the situation so much. But it was too late.

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After we finally found Twice, I went home and tried to go to sleep, but I couldn't. Instead, I decided to take a cold shower. When I got in the bathroom, I turned the water on and got undressed. I stepped into the tub and let the water run down my back and soak my hair. I ran my fingers through my hair, groaning at the feeling of my muscles relaxing. I could feel my wings getting cold. I thought about today.

I couldn't stop thinking about when Dabi pinned me against the wall. Why did he decide to do that? Why did he enjoy messing with me so much? I thought about the warmth from his body, about the way his lips felt against my neck, the burning of his palms on my wrists. I looked down at my wrists and could still see the marks.

I closed my eyes and continued to think about it. I thought about what would have happened if it escalated. I imagined him pinning me to the bar. No one else in there. Him pinning me to the cold wood.

I moved my hand down to my dick and pushed my back against the wall. I started slowly stroking myself. I thought about Dabi kissing me lustfully. I imagined him, putting his hands up and down my shirt before pulling my pants down. I moaned lowly. I imagined him taking me in his mouth, but not fully giving me pleasure. Only teasing me. I imagine him not letting me cum and turning me around. I imagined him roughly fucking me without any prep as a way to tell me who the boss is.

I threw my head back and moaned as I imagined him pounding into me. And then I came all of the shower curtain. But I kept pumping. It felt so good. I eventually came to a stop and I stood there, breathing hard, thinking about what I just did. I'm a monster.